finally.... tong till today... can get some deserve rest liao.... been like working alone for almost the whole freaking month... kns... i not robot lor... robot also will get spoilt de lor.... now dun even dare weight myself.... just one week ago my weight drop to 40kg liao... WTH... its like one more KG ima in the 30's zone liao... can proclaim myself as a POW....(prisoner of work i mean...) dun care ar.... mon not going to work also... not my prob... gonna MIA... wahahha....!!! i did wat i can liao.... dun expect more from me le.... dar also hav been stress over work and sch... keep ranting about it to me... haiZzz... my own issue also alot... but still hav to try to cheer him up... however... due to the fact both of us not in good mood lately... alot of small conflicts keep happening... but i believe things will work out for the both of us... we both care and love each other too much to lose each other le....today aft one hell work week get to see dar... really all the tiredness like dun feel it liao..... but dun wanna spend too long with him... he still got tutorials to finish and tml got work... haiZz.. wat to do.... hopefully he can rest well tonite....heading to bed also.... hope to dream about him tonite....
went to work today... nth much happens.... peaceful day... lol... just the way i like it...nv cele also... dar got work and class... dun expect much from him also... dun wanna pin any hopes on anyone....ytd dar came over awhile to 'bai nian' then we went to hub walkie abit... dunno wat i ate... feel nausea all of a sudden... then i dun wan go hm... went back his place to rest...dar was so tired from these few days... fell aslp quite fast.... took his keys to open door so to go hm myself... think he heard me going off... die die wan send me hm... haiZz.. stubborn lil kid... when parked his car at my place it was just over midnite... he lean over softly sang bday song to me while lightly clapping his hands... so cute.... so sweet.... love him to bits...
finally work till thursday liao... last day before the holis... woohoo!!! long weekends for me... wldnt be going back to work till the 18th... thought gonna hav a peaceful day... i was so wrong... morn was peaceful... clearing my shit as usual and other crap falling from the sky...lunch come back hell comes liao... wah kaoZz...tio gan like no tml like tat... for tat freaking 2.5hrs ar... dunno how to live ar..... then i also dunno wats wrong with dar... things i say to him nv get into his head... go and send flowers over to my place..... the delivery man dunno how to come go call me tio gan once liao... then come deliver tio gan again... totally sian ji bua ar.... dunno y he go do tat for wat... already told him dun try to do anything funny or do things tat will screw me up during work... nv listen.... dun understand wana give cant give in person de meh... or in his case.. already say didnt get anything for me then still do these things...wats worse is tat the flowers are red in colour.... another thing i dun understand.... i dun believe he dunno i dun like red and pink.... i rmb clearly i got tell him before in his car i dun like roses even.... i really dunno wat he trying to do... ima already half sian over the month liao and he is like dunno doing wat... argh.... dun wanna complain to him also... dun wanna upset him since its his 'xing yi'.... just gonna keep quiet about it....no mood to say anything to him also... his holi is all screwed up by his colleague... means my holi also screwed.... he already piss off.. dun wanna piss his even more... lately i really nth to tok to him... seems like the things i say he always not happy also... always gave him the impression tat ima shooting or forcing him... dunno lah.... shall not tok so much already.... also no mood to say anything lah....shall await till all the 'major' dates pass by....
ima gonna say the same thing... I HATE FEB!!!~~nth comes good for me during feb every single yr... especially tis yr since CNY is also in feb... grrr.... super low spirits.... dun even know where to start ranting even... haiZz... actually freaking used to my mood swing in feb every year....CNY... same stupid things... everything i hav to settle... dunno my bro is for wat de... just rot there one... kaoZz... no time for myself also... sebei sianZz half liao....vday this yr coincidences with cny.... means no need to cele... no biggie diff for me anyway... since i nv get to cele vday one... think for so many yrs only cele once.... tats it... so to me its just another normal day for me whether i got bf or not....bday... ahahha... dun even bother with it.... same thing.... nv cele one... i dun even rmb having a small bday cake for me.... think i nv had a bday cake... watever..... no many ppl bother to even say happy bday... wat to do.... my bdate is kinda diff to rmb.... so once again.. itsa normal day...and for some weird reason... i always hav some sort of dispute with my close ones when its just before my bday/vday... every single yr is like tat... like curse or sth.... ppl is like stepping on my tail every single day.... i dun even wanna flare up or wat... dun bother about it le....one good thing about feb is tat itsa short month..... can faster end it.... urgh.... still got 2 more weeks to tahan till march.... when is this gonna end....
nearing new yr..... urgh... so tired... past few days nv slpt well... keep waking up... dar suggest go slp at his place... ytd reach his place like 10pm... no one came to open the freaking door... haiZz.. already hav a bad day le still got such shit happening to me... nvm... had my dinner alone then wait for dar to come back from sch... both of us so tired... lol... nv tok much to each other... bath then he went to do some tutorials... was watching some tv before i slp... but see dar do tutorials scared i disturb him... ask him to off the tv but he dun wan... think he continue to do like half hr? dunno... was halfway in lala land liao... wahahah... rmb he kinda tired then keep his stuff off lights and tv le.... spend some quality time(finally alone ar..) together before falling aslp.... i rmb he waking up saying 'shit'... wahaha!!! (woke up late) then rmbing he stroke my hair... softly told me he heading to work.... woke up awhile... kiss him... and told him bye.... i stared at the room door when he closes it... suddenly feel lonely.... listening to him opening and locking the main gate plus door and his foot steps before falling back to a short slumber...ytd really had a good slp.... think he is really the main cause of it... i feel bery safe with him around me.. i literally get into a 'dreamy' mode' once he beside me....(depends how u define 'dreamy') then he not around i bery awake... lol... he's my slping pill~~PS: before the day ends i rmb looking at him while he finishes my remaining dinner.... for some reason i think he like getting skinny... maybe ima imagining things again... but anyway... he sure gonna get fat coming CNY...PPS:really thankful i hav dar with me.... loving him more with each passing day.... hmmm... maybe when young i already like u.... i dunno...(maybe tats y i keep pestering u last time... lol!!!~~)老公永远是我的!!~~~PPPS: weekend heading out... see got clothes to buy or not... sianzz... gonna be broke....
sianZz... lost my hp on tuesday.... so freaking piss with myself... y am i so clumsy.... and i love my hp.... pei me for like at least 4 yrs?? sebei sian de lor.... furthermore ima freaking shag... really ran around AMK looking for it and making the damn police report..... then next two days my legs like wat like tat... walk also cant walk...(wat to do... nv run like how many yrs suddenly run so much...)anyway.... managed to get a replacement sim card plus a 150 bucks voucher... wahahah!!! today got paid straight go buy a hp le.... got a Sony Ericsson Aino... black colour de... ya i know.. black again... so me rite??.... well though ima emo-ing over my precious lost hp... ima happy i got Aino.... been eyeing on it but dun bear to buy..... haiZz... with this extra expense plus the coming CNY.... my next mont cfm again not enough to spend liao lor.....finally saw dar aft the long week days..... miss him so much.... though we hav a slight bickering ytd i dun hold anything against him... to me is u hav ur logic i hav mine... i understand ur logic can le... but dun expect me to follow it of it does not compile with mine.... and i expect the same way as u..... anyway!!~~ i stuck to dar like glue today... wahahah!!! like a small kid sia... did nth much... saw him do his tutorial.... physics.... oggie lah.. can understand abit....(better than maths...) i shall consider myself playful today... kekekek.... dunno y.... see dar just wanna do alot of things with him.... oh ya.. he bought gifts for my mom... abalone shark fin plus other stuff... dunno how much it cost leh... think he burn a hole in his wallet again for me... mom was asking me y buy so much... i can only reply i dunno wat he bought in the first place lor... but i appreciate wat he do lah... think tml hav to buy gift for his mom le... or else i also no time to do shopping.... think ima go slp le... hoping tml comes faster.....
just now on the phone with dar... asked me wat i wan for vday.... lol... actually i dun care wat u get me lor... or in a way.. i dun need anything.... however wats the reason u gave me, its the thought tat counts rite??but in case he really stress over it.... maybe can give a few pointers? (since i really dun need anything at the moment or in this case... the things i wan is like freaking exp... wahhahah!!)
soft toys: anything but teddy bears or dolls (i will throw it away in front of ur face if u give me tat...)
jewellery: prefer rings or necklaces to bracelets or ear rings.... not a fan of diamond or gold... plain silver can le....electronic: dun bother.. i hav wan i need.... flowers: if really wan get tat i hate red or pink.... loves yellow white or blue... collectibles: also dun bother.. u got me unicorn le... enough liao...
clothing: prefer i get myself though...
hmmm... aft typing all tat.... i seems... ima not helping at all... wahahha!!!... (told u i dun need anything.....)
PS: we shall go take pic before CNY... so u can put in ur new wallet oggie?
in regards to a qus pointed out from dar to me: wat kind of person am i?my answer:
determine
organizehumorous
strict at times
stingy to himself yet generous to others
more optimistic than pessimistic
stubborn
likes to reason with pplabit 'da nan ren'
tends to be hard on himself
super responsible (abit too much...)caring
loving(hopefully only to me...)
level headed
far sighted
for now.. can only think so these things wor.... can or not ar?
the long awaited weekend aft a sucky week.... lol.... firstly was work... yea yea.... same old thing...... blah blah blah... i dun even bother saying... then family... urgh... really cant stand them... especially nearing CNY.... nag and nag... argue and argue.... every year is like tat... really make my blood boil some times.... but this week really buay tahan... really dun wanna stay at hm at all ar.... so... made a decision... stay one nite at dar's hse....
really enjoyed myself over at dar's place... though we nv go out at all... doesnt matter... females are weird creatures... dun dun really care wat the itinerary is as long as the person they care and love is beside them... so... kinda applies to me also... just enjoy the time spent with him...
oh ya.. one cute incident... i bought a book for him.... his 'death note: another note' novel... when he sees the book ar..... his eyes open so big... wahahha... reminds me of a image of a chubby boy outside a candy store.... so cute~~~ i see liao really heart melt sia.... ima glad he likes it...
ima so 'addicted' to slping beside him le.... nowadays if at hm slp... either is cant slp... or wake up super early.... like dunnos stress over wat like tat.... tat nite with him around slpt like a baby..... love tat warmth feeling of him beside me... love the moment when he hugs me to slp.... (maybe i really need him to calm my nerves down....)Sunday nth much.... love the moment when i woke up first thing i see is him... hear him say good morn to me... so sweet... kekeke.... did nth much though... he was doing his tutorials the whole day... i also dun wanna bother him much.... when to do my stuff... just enjoyed each other's company till nite... then he send me hm...(so dun wanna go hm~~EMO!!!~~~)
tats about it for the weekend... shall tahan the work week again till i see him on sat...
PS: on the phone with him while typing this post.... he's sick yet still doing tutorials.... being restless... piss over himself for making stupid mistakes... even say the F word out loud... haiZz... shall not blame him... cant help him much also....
