Tuesday, December 29, 2009

moodless.....


bad day... nobody understands..... everyone wans things done their way regardless whether the tactic is suitable or not..... anyway.... was reading the forum.... came across this... wonder how true it is.....

30 Things Girls Will Like Their Bf to Do
* 1- touch their waist
* 2- talk to them
* 3- share secrets
* 4- give her your jacket
* 5- kiss them slowly
* 6- hug them
* 7- hold her
* 8- laugh with her
* 9- invite her somewhere
*10- let her be with you when your with your friends
*11- smile with her
*12- take pics with her
*13- pull her onto your lap
*14- when she says she loves you more, deny it.fight back
*15- when her friends says they love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved
*16- always hug her and say i love you when you see her
*17- kiss her unexpectedly
*18- hug her from behind around the waist
*19- tell her she beautiful not sexy!
*20- tell her the way you feel about her!
*21- kiss her on the lips
*22- dont ask her to buy you stuff. you buy her stuff
*23- trust her , no matter wad .
*24- make her feel loved
*25- buy them stuff. like small things can still help
*26- don't lie to her
*27- dont cheat on her
*28- take her anywhere she wants
*29- txt messege her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her
*30- be there for her when ever she needs
you, & even though she doesn't need you just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you

Monday, December 28, 2009

all i wan for xmas is you....



woohoo....!!! no need to work since thurs... had a terrific long weekend though ima super sick... stayed over at dar's place for 2 days... enjoyed every moment with him... as dar said... ima totally in 'la la land' for the past few days... i love the lil moments with him... waking up and seeing him the first thing in the morn... before heading to bed wishing him good niteZz and hugging him to slp....

actually..... dun really rmb wat we did... wahhaha~~~ didnt go out during xmas eve or the holi itself... just quietly spend some quality time with him alone at his hse... only rmb he most of the time building gundam... with me by his side(usually half aslp mode).... daydreaming again... just looking at him concentrating on his lil project.... ima so mesmerize by him sia... the more i look at him the more i find him good looking.... think ima still in 'la la land' lor.... or wat ppl say is really true.. women is attracted to men who is serious at work...

btw.... xmas also his bday..... gave him a gift with cards... took some time to think wat to write sia... so many things to say but dunno how to pen it down.... but oggie lah.. manage to write wat i wanted eventually... and he actually like my gift(heng ar... thought he will complain say i waste lui again sia....) i also got xmas present!! gundam unicorn!! yea!!!~~~ love it lots!! will really take my time to build tat... kekeke....

ytd went to science center... go and see the body works exhibition.... grrr... dar keep telling me if i do this or tat... this is now my organs will look like... kaozz... emo de lor... not tat ima not trying to get healthier wat... like tat also can shoot me sia...

anyway... boxing day was our 8th month together... wow... really one blink of an eye time flies like wat sia.... weird though... usually a relationship aft maybe bout 6 months will tend to settle down and act more like 'lao fu lao qi' le.. but we're still in a 'honeymoon' mode leh... dunno y like tat sia..... also dunno izzit a good thing or a bad thing... but.. who cares!!!~~~

oh ya.. ytd dar suddenly asked me... wat made me go look for him yrs back.... actual reason i really dunno wor... just know die die must dig him out from the corners of SG.... dun believe he vanish into thin air then... come to think of it... think he is kinda 'grateful' tat i found him... cos he asked me wat could hav happen to us now if yrs back i didnt manage to find him... another 'if' scenario qus... no answer de lor... diao..... but being a 'pan tang' person... i believe tat heaven is really making fun of us lor... for so many yrs since he moved away and transfer sch.... we're always some wat nearby each other... just tat is always 'cha shen er guo'.... freaky weird if u ask me...

12am le... time to slp.. tml work again.... well.. as least only halfday... seeing dar again tml!!! weee!!!!~~~

Friday, December 18, 2009

mixed feelings....


ytd dar came over for dinner....(since keep bugging me when he can come over so might as well...) already told him no need to buy anything still insist.... haiZz... nv learn de... anyway... my mom nv comment anything aft he left... so.... dunno wats she's thinking ATM.... but i think she dun hav anything to complain ba... cos if she dun like she wldnt even agreed to let him come my hse to makan de lor...

they didnt tok... (or maybe a few words when i disappear into the room for awhile.. tat i dunno liao) hmmm... dunno wat my dar is thinking rite now regarding this... think he think my family's weird or sth... everyone hides in one corner of the hse de... wahhaha!!!

dunno its a good thing or bad thing leh... dunno wat the both of them is thinking lor... i like kanna stuck in the middle... (not a good thing wor...)

will see how it goes...

Thursday, December 17, 2009

assured.....


my back is killing me... need painkillers le... siao liao... how to work like tat.... haiZz... think MC tml liao lor....

dar been telling me stuffs... first is ask me go get my braces... then sth bout i hav to take photo... hav to wear dress... cannot run de... i hear liao totally blur... dunno wat the hell he was toking then... ask him still can tell me to go think about it... grrr... purposely de lor.... then next moment ask me to ask my mom stuff.... think he trying to assure me ba.... well... its working... ima not tat jumpy.... I'll just let him handle ba... he knows when's the most appropriate time ba...shall try not to be too sensitive over it le....

will enjoy every moment with him... even its for tat 20 mins......

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

feeling weird...

shag... back ache... think need tranxene again... well at least tml took leave... but no rest... time to see grandmom... maybe head down to see dad also... long time no see him le... miss him alot... good side is i get to see dar tml from aftn... kekekeke... missing him already even if though he fetched me from work just now... *blush.. wats wrong with me...*

lately keep over thinking things... about him.... i just dun get it... ima stubborn, bad tempered, spoilt(in a way), narrow minded at times... why of all ppl he pick me... and this isnt the main qus anyway... tat day actually wanna ask him de... but in the car i keep gagging... and the things he said... made me gagged even more... dunno why i keep thinking of such things..... i dun think its about being insecure... itsa more of.... finding out wats in his mind... wat was he thinking back then... why does he make tat decision... thinking back... maybe to him itsa normal... but kinda sudden for me....

another stupid issue in my mind... as usual... bio clock ticking.... faster now... kinda even MORE emo when i hear frs or relatives getting married.... i dun hav much time left... i got alot of things to plan... alot of things tat needs time.... and ima nearing 30... hello~~!!! dun wish to be an overage bride or mom!!~~ but as usual again.... cant do much.... so... just silently wait and see how it goes ba...

having mixed feelings... i hav the feeling tat i always wanna be with him.. i cant stand being alone... just need him by my side... just wanna wake up everyday and see his face first thing in the morn... yet i sometimes feels distant... maybe cos thinking diff ba... priorities diff ba... but nth is perfect lor... just hav to slowly work things out ba....

130am... time to slp... slp early wake up early can see him early le...

Thursday, December 10, 2009

half moon feeling.....


sebei sianZzz... mood not good... alot of stupid issues popping up... especially at work... argh.... faster weekend lah... get over and done with.... sick and tired of lame phone calls.... brainless qus....

also heard alot of 'undesirable' answers from diff ppl.... urgh.... fed up.... like nobody is using their brains at all.... nobody is actually planning for anything..... or dun think its necessary to think about it now..... ya... dun think ba... dun last min rush everything and panic.... grrr~~~ dun think now then when go and really go ponder over it... i dun even know wat these ppl are doing ATM.... dun wanna plan for future.... or izzit i getting over paranoid compared to them....

at least i already scheduled myself for dental appt next month... braces time... gonna save up like mad for it(heng the first installment is not in thousands de)....... then by the time itsa done just nice(hopefully not more than 2.5yrs)... tat day also just check my CFP... sebei pathetic... haiZz... nvm... already calculated everything... not enough heng got lui in bank to tong(but shd be enough).... but anyway.... doesnt matter... say so much also no use de lah... i also dun wanna do anything liao... let nature take its course lah... say too much say i naggy... so just shut up and quietly do my work and other shit lah....

btw... alot of ppl getting married sia... steph ROM this month.. my colleague is ROMing on Feb... my sec sch buddy just ROM..... siao liao lah.. my wallet getting thin liao lor.... die... how to save lui sia... and all of them are getting married at the age tat i wanna get married... wahahah... not possible for me liao lor..... haiZz... dun wanna think about this le lah... think liao i more emo... can only say its never gonna be my turn lah...

Monday, December 7, 2009

emo emo emo....

can u be meggie?

EMO!!! DAR GOING FOR RESERVIST!! gonna be lonely.... for this week... oggie lah.. at least he booking out before the weekends.... so.... still can see him... lol... will wait anxiously everyday.. hopefully it passes quick!!!~~

this month gonna be another month of spending like siao... sebei sian lor... like tat how to save lui for braces...(jan got appt nia... heng only for normal consultation first... but still... got target date de leh.....) plus other things to think about... suddenly like not enough lui to get the stuff needed... haiZz... work harder ba.... things will turn out well de... eventually.... (thinking hard about CPF.... stress....!!!)

hmmm... having random thoughts.... again...(why... cannot izzit...) being together for almost 8 months le... time really flies... i still rmb the KTV incident vividly wor.... kinda miss tat day...(ya... we look extremely weird in other ppls' eyes then) wahahah.. the way u so *ahem ahem* shall i say it as gan jiong?? or totally lost... priceless moments sia.... but no matter... days are getting sweeter with each passing day.... loving him and cherishing him more with each passing moment with him.... 好想永远跟你在一起.....

counting down the days needed to pass before that happens.........