i hate lunar 8th month

haiZz... its the time of the year again... sebei sian... do everything also in half mood mode... even smile also lazy to do so... super silent mood swings... more frequent space outs.... not to mention for some weird reason.. every year lunar 8th month is not a good month for me.. cfm got things to screw me up or someone step on my tail de.... retribution sia...(sth like a slap on the face every single freaking year!!!)

tat day hav to pray death anniv... kaoZz... so dun wanna join in the 'fun'.... not tat ima being mean or wat... is i dun 'recognize' the issue in anyway...(ya.. aft so long still dun wanna face it...) every freaking year do this its like a reminder to all the 'yuan qu' tat i hav to withstand and all the promises i hav to uphold....(shit de lor.... so dun wanna do it!!)

anyway~~~ ytd went ktv with laogong... Elaine Audrey brown Michelle and Timo... dunno y.. they keep choosing those emo songs which tells the story about a guy or a ger missing the other half... or they parted but the party actually dun wan... tmd... super dun wanna hear it... sebei emo de lor... mind start to wander again lor...(actually before ytd already mind wander to dunno where liao lah...) i keep thinking about the 'wat if...' qus... aiya... i think i better brain wash myself... dun think about anything lah.. the more i think the worse i get...

thoughts in my head currently:
i know the logic behind 'the person u marry usually is not the one u truly love'....
but my logic is 'i will only marry someone whom i truly and dearly love'
hmmm... doesnt seems fair to me.......

day dreaming

at work now.. lunch time... whole morn doing key ins... see the amount till i wanna slp liao... wahhaha... sianZz.. aftn still got shit to clear.. like nv ending de lor... then tml half day.... next coming mon is public holi.. shit sia... i hav a feeling cant finish work... NVM... will hav a wat de!!!

ytd was toking to steph regarding some 'bad issues' with hui... wth... i didnt know she turn till like tat... like... ditch frs nvm.. before ditching still wanna spread rumors or make them hav bad reputation... was the point in this sia.. so old liao.. still wanna play such mind games... dunno wat they all up to also lah... not my prob also... wahhaha....

ima feeling weird today.. ever since i wake up in the morn i keep thinking about dar... just cldnt get his image out of my head...(can u imagine i on bus the whole trip was like in lala land smiling away....) sian.. miss dar... sun gonna be busy day for me also... hav to pray daddy...(i detest this... i dun wanna do it!!) means i dun hav much time with dar... dang~ sebei sad liao lor... i wan my jiang shi lao gong~~~~

PS: missing and loving more with each day wor!! how ar??~~

smooth sailing~ machiam holiday~

super great week... nth much to do... whahaha!!! holiday!!~~

this week up till now quite eventful... became a baby sitter for Zanden(Joey's 3 yr old son).... he's a oggie kid... only once awhile stick in a shop reluctant to go only... hav to coax him to leave or else he can say bye bye to joey liao... wahahhah!!!!

next thing... boss not around for one week since 15th... woohoo!!!~~ shiok sia~~ though still hav to go 'work' but can slack sia...(err.. actually my own shit havnt clear... wahahaah!!!) and today(16th) i nv go work.... whahha... pei dar whole day till like near 11pm... did nth much... whole day stay at his hse slp and play with my lappie... had breakfast and dinner(with his family)

only thing ima piss off with him is he take my pic... as though he dunno i hate taking pics... (well.. maybe he dunno y i hate taking them... but i already warn all my frs not to take pics of me liao) nvm.. since he complain he dun hav my pic(sound so kelian...) i told him weekend go take liao...

mood pretty good.. kekekek.... lets see wat will happen during the remaining week ba!~

PS: its not i become more daring or wat... its cos ima loving u more with each passing day.... and i dun wanna leave u...

qus....

today met dar rite aft i wake up... went to get some stuff for his car plus other things... makan chilli noodles...(with his shd i say cadet mates? btw.. i wasnt told whether they metting us or not till i went to the table....) then went back to his hse to watch some anime.... got some slp(dar getting bolder each day huh??) aftwhich he wans to go jogging...

i was using his lappie.... surfing my own shit webbies for updates and other crap... as the main tab was his inbox... i was kpo-ing around(oggie... i know its wrong but i didnt go open every mail... but still sorry about it....) oggie.... was poking my nose when i notice an email in chinese(come on lah... Wats the % of ppl sending a chinese email....) just read abit nia... nv bother to scroll much also.. was more interested in my own webbie issues.....

but anyway~~ aft browsing tat mail... wah sian half liao... i also dunno y.... just dun feel like doing anything.... my mind whole remaining day only got one word - regrets?..... i keep thinking wat he's thinking.... etc etc etc... Wat's exactly do he wan..... does he hav any regrets regarding to anything... ima like totally spaced out on the way back hm....

watever... tired and slpy... gonna rest le... *nitez lao gong.....*

weird stuff and dream... (long post)

FREAKING TIRED!! all cos i cover my colleague to do one shitty shift... kns.. i dun wanna do in the first place de... wat to do.. her kid got high fever.. then i do this favor for them to clear their shit i get nth in return.... furthermore still tio say by my colleague say 'if got appt then dun do mah... say got sth on mah...' shit lah... i already got sth on liao i push my appt away for u then u last min tell this shit to me.... wah biang.. i hav to give up my half day leave for this crap!!!!

then nvm.... think too long nv do nite shift... come back hm super shag... but cant slp... slpt like at 4am... then 7 plus hav to wake up again... OMG... thurs like walking zombie at work sia... totally cant focus on my work... whole day wanna slp sia... cant even open my eyes for like 10 secs... drank coffee also no use... urgh... can die sia... then once reach hm knock out liao... wahahah.. slpt from 7 plus till 1030(all thanks to my mom who die die wan me to tak my dinner...) then from 12 plus all the way till next morn... then now i think i slp too much... wahhaha... damn tired... body wanna shut down liao lor....

btw was dreaming ytd though... err.. more like flashes than dreams since its not like continuous.... only rmb 2 scenes.... one was i sitting in a room wearing a wedding dress(no u no see wrong i wrote wedding dress....) waiting anxiously... i rmb i was fidgeting with my fingers the whole time... the sec one was me signing the marriage cert in CHINESE...(i always sign my name in english.. apart from impt docs...) sign finish i was gleaming with happiness... ya... tats all i can rmb... super weird dreams/flashes... just like 2 weeks ago i everyday got nitemares now this... think i hav to book a room in hougang chalet liao... or ask doc to assess my brain le...sth is really bery wrong with me....

side note: today went to work.. nth much happened till lunch break.. went to buy lunch with joey.. then saw this:

wth is this sia... now they come up with can drinks???can only say.. the world is ever changing... even cough mixture can hav drinks de...


side side note: FINALLY!!!~~ elaine broke off with tat useless bugger.... thank god/allah/guan ying or whoever is up there lah.... she finally sees the light!!! *but ima being bugged by him* damn u leech!!!

PS: dar... will these weird flashes be deja'vu?? hmmm... why not u answer for me?

updates!!

5/9/09 Saturday

work... super slack day... wahhaha... was like playing most of the time at work lor... aft work met up with dar... send joey to her mom's hse at CHOA CHU KANG(omg.. freaking far...) then proceed to jurong point watch G Force.... hmmm.. the show can watch... damn funny and cute... love those guinea pigs... SO CUTE~~~!!! walkie around... dar send me back round like 10 plus... but we stayed in the car till like 1am... wahahha!!! dar keep complaining about the way i dress... watever... i wear wat i like... dun like then too bad.. wahahha... i get to wear means u also dun get to see lor... bleah~~~ (funny lor... complain wat i wear in the end still comment i look nice... y men are so weird....)

6/9/09 Sunday

met dar plus kenny.. went compass point for a gundam fair... also met my bro there...(yes! got my 81 bucks... muahahha BBs... here i come!!) hav to painstakingly persuade dar to buy his Exia ignition mode... urgh~~ will die de lor... it not like u every month buy such things.. somemore got discount liao.. still wanna think about it... waiting for CNY izzit ar?? but anyway... eventually he bought it... think he's happy about it.. though cfm his heart pain for the lui lah...

went back to his hse since both of us is like freaking tired due to the workload plus his studies... was slping in the rm when his sis and bro-in-law came back... overheard his 'bro' to ask the sis to wake us up... duhZz... wanna ask ask nicely lah... think ppl really slp like log cant hear meh... NVM.... we just slp in the living rm lor... wahahha... cooling somemore...(hmmm really long time i no slp in living rm liao lor...) we totally blacked out for hrs... by the time we woke up its like 9 plus... went to makan then he send me hm le....

though nth much happen ima just glad to hug him while i slp.... i just love being with u dar....

7/9/09 Monday

thought today gonna be hectic day since monday... but heng wor!! think cos sch holi also... everyone not in SG... wahahha... once again super slack... think this week gonna be a breeze... only shit i hav to do is my freaking accs... sebei sian de lor.... but oggie lah... cfm can finish de lah... easy shit...

met dar aft work since he today bo sch plus he took leave to service his car.. while waiting went to buy a watch for him..(since his already gone case liao and knowing him cfm wldnt bear to buy another watch...) by the time he fetch me... can fetch his mom liao... so went to jurong point to fetch... then headed to near chinese garden Mrt there to makan steamboat... cost me $50.40...(can go on diet liao lor... eat so much... lol!!!) his mom only instruction to me is to make dar buy a good mattress...(wat to de.. he's a miser.... wahahha~~!!!)

aft sending his mom hm he send me back... was laughing the whole time...(dar... how can u do this to me when i just ate!!!) nth much happens aft tat... only think he commented was how much i spend for today... hai.. again toking about lui... sebei sian de lor.... i hear till i dun wanna listen liao lor... fed up liao le lah...

awhile later when he reached hm he was 'playing' with his new watch... keep saying y i buy things for him but yet dun allow him to buy things for me.... wahahha... wat to do.. i ger mah.. gers are like tat de... think he like the watch.. only think he dislike is the colour of the face... (he abit colour blind... face colour is lime green...)he can tell me he dun wanna wear it cos its the first watch i bought for him.... still can say wanna frame it up...(u dun wear i kill u ar... i spend lui for u on this cos i wan u to wear it!!!)

tok on the phone for awhile then wish each other good nite... think he's aslp rite now... hope he'll hav a good nite rest...

PS: wat else is on ur wish list and to do list ar?? and i hope u really like ur watch... if u wanna know how much it cost.. dun ask me.. i wldnt tell....

unexpecting events and thoughts....

wahahah.. this pic.. *ahem* no need to explain lah hor?

wah....ytd.... dunno how to blog about it wor... got its highs and lows... all thanks to dar dar... wahahah!! gonna be a super long lor sor post...

it all started early in the morn when tio asthma attack like at 530am... was dragged to TTSH A&E by dar.... wasnt angry at him at all... just upset about his persistence to it... due to the fact tat i nv went to hospital(no bloody records can be found in any major hospitals) and i intend to keep it tat way... if i know i really need help i will find help de...

furthermore i detest TTSH... i forbid myself in going to tat horrid place... i wanna siam tat place as far as possible.. i even told dar if he really wanna bring me go hospital bring to elsewhere... but i think to him TTSH is the nearest one....so he picked tat... urgh... how i dread going there....

oh ya... another thing i hate going to such places is the medical officers there CFM ask alot of redundant qus which got nth to do with my condition... duhZz... can ask me wat medical history i got... lame.. i having asthma attack u ask me whether i got history of it... somemore go ask when my menses... WTH... wat does my menses got to do with this anyway... freaking piss at tat ger also... sebei no brainer... but anyway.. at the end of the 'ordeal' got my MC and nebulizer...

went to his hse to rest.. since i dun wanna go hm and the distance to his hse like so much nearer than mine.... was slping like for a couple of hrs...(so needed tat... not enough slp liao lor...) he slpt beside me the whole time... love tat feeling....(wat to do.. i wanna hug him at watever possible chance... muahahah!!!) but from like 11 plus dar TRYING TO BE FUNNY LOR..... keep pestering me...(think must buy cane liao... someone need spanking le...) hmmm how to say this... *ahem... we were enjoy each others' company lor... like tat lor... ahem*

but sebei funny one... his HP cfm will not ring if we're slping or watching anime... his HP will cfm ring when we're doing sth else... kinda irritating if u ask me... eventually dar told me he's gonna off his hp...(ya... like tats gonna happen... U RESPONSIBLE IDIOT~) oh.. one more thing... when i was at his hse.... my stomach like fossilized like tat.... whole freaking day not hungry one... maybe cos body too shag to notice its actually hungry... wahhaha.... but oggie lah... manage to hav dinner with him....

went back like 9 plus... i also dun wan him to stay up to late le.... he already shag since morn le.... wan him to get as much rest as possible... though i super hate to leave.... i wanna pei him everyday if possible... i wanna see him everyday when i wake up in the morn.... shit... my mind is getting screwed up again... wahhaah... bio clock is messing my mind up le... gonna stop here with alot of other things tat i shall not say... kekekek....

PS: dar... just wanna know... so wat else is on ur 'TO DO LIST'??