weird stuff and dream... (long post)

FREAKING TIRED!! all cos i cover my colleague to do one shitty shift... kns.. i dun wanna do in the first place de... wat to do.. her kid got high fever.. then i do this favor for them to clear their shit i get nth in return.... furthermore still tio say by my colleague say 'if got appt then dun do mah... say got sth on mah...' shit lah... i already got sth on liao i push my appt away for u then u last min tell this shit to me.... wah biang.. i hav to give up my half day leave for this crap!!!!

then nvm.... think too long nv do nite shift... come back hm super shag... but cant slp... slpt like at 4am... then 7 plus hav to wake up again... OMG... thurs like walking zombie at work sia... totally cant focus on my work... whole day wanna slp sia... cant even open my eyes for like 10 secs... drank coffee also no use... urgh... can die sia... then once reach hm knock out liao... wahahah.. slpt from 7 plus till 1030(all thanks to my mom who die die wan me to tak my dinner...) then from 12 plus all the way till next morn... then now i think i slp too much... wahhaha... damn tired... body wanna shut down liao lor....

btw was dreaming ytd though... err.. more like flashes than dreams since its not like continuous.... only rmb 2 scenes.... one was i sitting in a room wearing a wedding dress(no u no see wrong i wrote wedding dress....) waiting anxiously... i rmb i was fidgeting with my fingers the whole time... the sec one was me signing the marriage cert in CHINESE...(i always sign my name in english.. apart from impt docs...) sign finish i was gleaming with happiness... ya... tats all i can rmb... super weird dreams/flashes... just like 2 weeks ago i everyday got nitemares now this... think i hav to book a room in hougang chalet liao... or ask doc to assess my brain le...sth is really bery wrong with me....

side note: today went to work.. nth much happened till lunch break.. went to buy lunch with joey.. then saw this:

wth is this sia... now they come up with can drinks???can only say.. the world is ever changing... even cough mixture can hav drinks de...


side side note: FINALLY!!!~~ elaine broke off with tat useless bugger.... thank god/allah/guan ying or whoever is up there lah.... she finally sees the light!!! *but ima being bugged by him* damn u leech!!!

PS: dar... will these weird flashes be deja'vu?? hmmm... why not u answer for me?

updates!!

5/9/09 Saturday

work... super slack day... wahhaha... was like playing most of the time at work lor... aft work met up with dar... send joey to her mom's hse at CHOA CHU KANG(omg.. freaking far...) then proceed to jurong point watch G Force.... hmmm.. the show can watch... damn funny and cute... love those guinea pigs... SO CUTE~~~!!! walkie around... dar send me back round like 10 plus... but we stayed in the car till like 1am... wahahha!!! dar keep complaining about the way i dress... watever... i wear wat i like... dun like then too bad.. wahahha... i get to wear means u also dun get to see lor... bleah~~~ (funny lor... complain wat i wear in the end still comment i look nice... y men are so weird....)

6/9/09 Sunday

met dar plus kenny.. went compass point for a gundam fair... also met my bro there...(yes! got my 81 bucks... muahahha BBs... here i come!!) hav to painstakingly persuade dar to buy his Exia ignition mode... urgh~~ will die de lor... it not like u every month buy such things.. somemore got discount liao.. still wanna think about it... waiting for CNY izzit ar?? but anyway... eventually he bought it... think he's happy about it.. though cfm his heart pain for the lui lah...

went back to his hse since both of us is like freaking tired due to the workload plus his studies... was slping in the rm when his sis and bro-in-law came back... overheard his 'bro' to ask the sis to wake us up... duhZz... wanna ask ask nicely lah... think ppl really slp like log cant hear meh... NVM.... we just slp in the living rm lor... wahahha... cooling somemore...(hmmm really long time i no slp in living rm liao lor...) we totally blacked out for hrs... by the time we woke up its like 9 plus... went to makan then he send me hm le....

though nth much happen ima just glad to hug him while i slp.... i just love being with u dar....

7/9/09 Monday

thought today gonna be hectic day since monday... but heng wor!! think cos sch holi also... everyone not in SG... wahahha... once again super slack... think this week gonna be a breeze... only shit i hav to do is my freaking accs... sebei sian de lor.... but oggie lah... cfm can finish de lah... easy shit...

met dar aft work since he today bo sch plus he took leave to service his car.. while waiting went to buy a watch for him..(since his already gone case liao and knowing him cfm wldnt bear to buy another watch...) by the time he fetch me... can fetch his mom liao... so went to jurong point to fetch... then headed to near chinese garden Mrt there to makan steamboat... cost me $50.40...(can go on diet liao lor... eat so much... lol!!!) his mom only instruction to me is to make dar buy a good mattress...(wat to de.. he's a miser.... wahahha~~!!!)

aft sending his mom hm he send me back... was laughing the whole time...(dar... how can u do this to me when i just ate!!!) nth much happens aft tat... only think he commented was how much i spend for today... hai.. again toking about lui... sebei sian de lor.... i hear till i dun wanna listen liao lor... fed up liao le lah...

awhile later when he reached hm he was 'playing' with his new watch... keep saying y i buy things for him but yet dun allow him to buy things for me.... wahahha... wat to do.. i ger mah.. gers are like tat de... think he like the watch.. only think he dislike is the colour of the face... (he abit colour blind... face colour is lime green...)he can tell me he dun wanna wear it cos its the first watch i bought for him.... still can say wanna frame it up...(u dun wear i kill u ar... i spend lui for u on this cos i wan u to wear it!!!)

tok on the phone for awhile then wish each other good nite... think he's aslp rite now... hope he'll hav a good nite rest...

PS: wat else is on ur wish list and to do list ar?? and i hope u really like ur watch... if u wanna know how much it cost.. dun ask me.. i wldnt tell....

unexpecting events and thoughts....

wahahah.. this pic.. *ahem* no need to explain lah hor?

wah....ytd.... dunno how to blog about it wor... got its highs and lows... all thanks to dar dar... wahahah!! gonna be a super long lor sor post...

it all started early in the morn when tio asthma attack like at 530am... was dragged to TTSH A&E by dar.... wasnt angry at him at all... just upset about his persistence to it... due to the fact tat i nv went to hospital(no bloody records can be found in any major hospitals) and i intend to keep it tat way... if i know i really need help i will find help de...

furthermore i detest TTSH... i forbid myself in going to tat horrid place... i wanna siam tat place as far as possible.. i even told dar if he really wanna bring me go hospital bring to elsewhere... but i think to him TTSH is the nearest one....so he picked tat... urgh... how i dread going there....

oh ya... another thing i hate going to such places is the medical officers there CFM ask alot of redundant qus which got nth to do with my condition... duhZz... can ask me wat medical history i got... lame.. i having asthma attack u ask me whether i got history of it... somemore go ask when my menses... WTH... wat does my menses got to do with this anyway... freaking piss at tat ger also... sebei no brainer... but anyway.. at the end of the 'ordeal' got my MC and nebulizer...

went to his hse to rest.. since i dun wanna go hm and the distance to his hse like so much nearer than mine.... was slping like for a couple of hrs...(so needed tat... not enough slp liao lor...) he slpt beside me the whole time... love tat feeling....(wat to do.. i wanna hug him at watever possible chance... muahahah!!!) but from like 11 plus dar TRYING TO BE FUNNY LOR..... keep pestering me...(think must buy cane liao... someone need spanking le...) hmmm how to say this... *ahem... we were enjoy each others' company lor... like tat lor... ahem*

but sebei funny one... his HP cfm will not ring if we're slping or watching anime... his HP will cfm ring when we're doing sth else... kinda irritating if u ask me... eventually dar told me he's gonna off his hp...(ya... like tats gonna happen... U RESPONSIBLE IDIOT~) oh.. one more thing... when i was at his hse.... my stomach like fossilized like tat.... whole freaking day not hungry one... maybe cos body too shag to notice its actually hungry... wahhaha.... but oggie lah... manage to hav dinner with him....

went back like 9 plus... i also dun wan him to stay up to late le.... he already shag since morn le.... wan him to get as much rest as possible... though i super hate to leave.... i wanna pei him everyday if possible... i wanna see him everyday when i wake up in the morn.... shit... my mind is getting screwed up again... wahhaah... bio clock is messing my mind up le... gonna stop here with alot of other things tat i shall not say... kekekek....

PS: dar... just wanna know... so wat else is on ur 'TO DO LIST'??

contented....

oggie... the last few days at work was kinda fun... alot of funny incidents happened... kinda loosen my mood up abit... at least not as piss as before liao.... hopefully tml wldnt start another round of hell le...

finally...!!! aft a week of pain anger sickness and hell... i get to meet dar... so miss him~~(think ima getting mad over him le...) was literally stuck to him the whole day... dun wanna even let go of his hand when we watch movie.... i dun even rmb i was tired or angry for the week... ima always happy when ima with him... (or maybe i like teasing him??) i love the lil actions he do... the way he toks... the way he tease me... and the way he always manage to cheer me up....

but only managed to be by his side like a couple of hrs due to 'other shitty commitments'... but its enough for me... ima happy just to see him... (hope he's not emo-ing cos of the time constraints...)

i just wanna look at him the whole day.... i just wanna mess up his hair... i just wanna touch his face... i just wanna hear his voice.... i just wanna hold his hand.... i just wanna hug him the whole time... i just wanna be by his side.... always.... AAaaaAhHHhHHhhhh!!!! i wan my laogong~~~

PS: i will always love u no matter wat... wo de jiang shi laogong~~

fucking bad day!!!

FREAKING HATE EVERYONE!!~~

NOW DUN BOTHER ME!!!

tormenting myself....

my mind is so bloody messed up... i dunno whether wat i do is rite or wrong... or whether will i regret later... i only know tat i hav to make a decision... pls stop blaming me for wat i decided to do....

anyway... lately having nightmares... over and over again... almost about the same thing... only diff settings... always about ppl asking me qus... tat qus.... tat qus which i dun wanna answer and will not answer to anyone one else except me... this is really getting on my nerves... i cant get a decent rest..(somemore work is like shit now...i need all the rest i can get!!!) furthermore now is the 7th month... kaozz..... retribution izzit... must punish me then happy ar.... grrrr....

another thing.. though ima getting fatter....(not one bit happy about it....) ima getting more and more pale with each passing day..... weird sia.. eat so much but like not getting any nutrients like tat... hav to think of sth to deal with this issue...

body also getting weaker... these few days keep having the 忽冷忽热 symptoms... or worse... will be sweating but will also be having cold shivers and goosebumps... think hav to eat more nourishing food liao... more essence of chicken le....

why am i like torturing myself lately.... wat is wrong with me....

side-note: few days ago pei joey fetch her son from childcare... seeing so many kids... kinda irritating though... but there is one kid who looks exactly like u... and he keep staring at me like i owe him sth.... creepy.... but anyway.. tats not the point.. the point is tat seeing how joey and zander (i think tats how the son's name is spelt) react to each other.... haiZz... was having thought of my own for those few days....

mentally unstable....

dar just started sch le... five yrs in NTU.. FIVE FREAKING YRS.... urgh.... why... WHY!!!~~~ sebei sianZz.... gonna be lonely most of time le.... hmmm... tats not really the prob... my bio clock is like bugging me lately.... well at least i got work to occupy my mind with... so dar... no need to worry about me....

also lately kinda in low spirits... hai... actually really dunno wat to do... kinda like no one to turn to... no one can understand me.... somemore its like make wat decision also like wrong de... now for the time being i just hope ima not too alone.... and try not to stray my mind too far off.....

great..... ima freaking starting to screw myself up....

FREAKNG MOOD...

F****ING PISS, UPSET, ANGRY, AGITATED.... I HAV BO FREAKING OPINIONS!!~~ NOW GET OUT OF MY BLOG~~~

hmmmm.... long weekend ahead....

ima so bloody sick... since fri already start to cough... then the haze is coming (hi!! again... welcome back!!) and for the past 3 days i didnt slp well... always wake up in one hr intervals cos of my wheezing.... even if i take my inhaler it doesnt help.... (guess its getting worse...) ytd finally went to see doc aft tahan-ing for so long.... freaking ex lor... 68 bucks for 3 med nia.... wat to do... hav to get a stronger inhaler *purple colour one* (got steroid in it sia!!) dun think will be using tat much... dun wanna be to reliant to it... i still wanna only use the blue one if i hav a choice.... wanna see dar but he see me so sick he rather hav me stay at hm....

but.... why ytd dar so bai chi one... already said of tired then no need to come over to see me le....just cos i say i wan u hav to chiong down from ur workplace aft u ot till 930... (mad lor u...) ya... ima elated to see u.... but also upset tat u did... see u so shag... ima like part to blame for it... hope u dun overexert urself.....

anyway... this weekend gonna be a long one... cos national day coming... means extra holi one mon... woohoo!! but havnt thought about wat to do leh... dar cfm sat working half day(he today hav to work through the nite till tml 1130).... means he's gonna head hm to slp.... (dun blame u...) but will be heading to suntec to collect his hp....(was half dead....) most prob will hav dinner either there or near his hse before we head down.... so.... sat is like ended already... ahahahha!!!

sun.... also dun wanna tire him out le... most prob go his hse watch anime... enjoying each others' company.... oh ya hor... can watch NDP... wahahah... but only like to watch the front portion of it... (wat to do.... one shot can see so many uniform ppl...) *drools*.....

mon is the prob one.... holi.... like a chance to slp late leh... but.... haiZz... its like the only chance we gonna see each other before sch gonna start.... dunno lah... see how ba... now still to early to say anything...

*hopes to hav waffle ice cream despite my cough...*

another week....

yea... another freaking week passed.... getting sick again... now wheezing plus bad cough... not to mention i caught a cold since last fri nite....(went out with dear for his sec sch gathering...) weekends didnt do much... stayed at hm since sick...(got slight fever during sun..) oh ya... was damn pek chek during the weekends... dunno y.. suddenly my fuse got shorten... suai lor... tio hell from me....

ytd was fine... took leave to pei dar to do his arrears.... he was so clumsy... wahahhaha... so cute to watch sia... was laughing the whole day...(shdnt be doing tat since ima coughing...) but anyway.... enjoyed ytd bery much...

today dar got another day leave... hav to go take his QET... hope he does well... and also later ima gonna head to the clinic to collect my report... haiZz.... sebei sian.... the result better dun be too jialat.....

updates:
just collect my result... all is well.. too well.. blood count is normal..... then y i got so many blue blacks??(maybe my hse got.... wWwwoOOoooOO~~~)
but in my view... my glucose, sodium and cholesterol getting near to the red zone liao... think hav to change eating habits.... (vegetarian? nah... i will nv give up the meat...)
see how ba... but no major probs with my body ATM.... heng ar....