anime & memories....

oh yea~~~ my internet... backie!!~~~ ima alive again~~~ so many shows to watch... so many webbies i hav to go visit... omg....

was rushing to watch tons of shows and anime... loaded halfway fell aslp.. damn... now hav to reload again...rushing rushing~~~ sth triggered my case note cabinet in my head... ytd was watching one anime: Kaichou wa maid-sama... yea i know.. y am i watching a gerly romance comedy genre type of anime.... oggie lah the show.... kinda cute... toking about this high sch ger who is the prez of the sch.. but working in a maid cafe... got 'involve' with the 'infamous' popular guy in sch... they got a thing going on.... anyway... latest episode was about a transfer student.. say come back to the place to find his first love(which is the prez)... and his love experience was when they are in elementary sch.... wth... when he say tat ar... i was like kaoZz... then wat about me sia... lol.. funny how a person's life twist and turn.. only to turn back to where we started...

i started to wonder... if tat time i persist in looking... wld i save so many yrs of time??.... if i was more determine and stand on my grounds wld i hav less pain??... if i say sth earlier... wld it be any diff... doesnt matter much now... wat is done is done... cant go back to change anything... can only savour the past moments in my life...

i actually enjoy every moment with dar... now or when we're kids... happy or having a war.... i really dunno wat it is... i literally just light up every single time i see him... even when ima in a foul mood when i see him i just feel more relac..(apart from the sudden buay tahan triggers tat cause my eruptions) i rmb the time when he was upset over his last r/s... during tat time i really wanna do sth for him... just hav tat feeling dun wanna see him being hurt... but alas i'm in no position to do.... no matter... see the future ba... shall shield him as much as i can....

PS: 7+more weeks to 1 and a half year of love....

happy cat~

had fun this weekend... fri went ktv with dar and his colleagues + fr... they're a funny bunch of ppl... enjoyed myself bery much... good mood.. even took a pic with dar...(ya.. i owe him de...) doesnt matter... now hp got new wallpaper liao.... kekeke.... maybe can hav more ba.. see how ba~

weekend literally slack at hm most of the time... which is good lah... mentally tired from work... spend some quiet quality time together is good.... HaiZz.... wish i hav a glass of cold beer now... tat will keep me lvl headed for awhile...

just notice i got lots of things to buy... damn it.... and is usually just nice i get paid... there goes my pay liao lor... i wan another cabinet~ and detolf~~ got promotion~~need hair mask, blusher, lip gloss, hairband(bro broke it once again).. oh ya.. badly need another wallet... urgh... sebei sianZz... shall see wat i need first ba...

dar today start class le... back to normal liao... u do yours i do mine kinda days le... hopefully he dun stress himself too much ba.... too many things to handle at one go... think he superman or sth... shall keep my cool at things... do one thing at a time... settle down settle down...

PS: i wanna huggie laogong to slp....

writing vs typing....

hmmm.. this pic reminds me of yrs back when i bought a lot of note books to write.... wrote about alot of things... depending wat comes into mind... usually blog entries... sometimes stories... sometimes poems... sometimes rants... more detailed than this online blog... of course i still keep these books... i had a bad memory... need this to refresh my mind... also to rmb happy incidents in my life then...

somehow i rather write then type these memories out... at least i can cfm tat no one reads my hard copies one... wahahah~~ and i like writing stuff.... can just sway my hands and write.. no need to worry whether it links or not... cos since its for my eyes only.. i can understand wat the hell ima writing....

i got alot of things in my mind... not organize... my thoughts are usually jumbled up... one moment this next another issue... thus constantly hav to keep thinking wat to do... whether izzit impt... blah blah blah...

anyway... back to life... usual stuff again... work load is like piling up... tml meeting.. sianZz... Dick is gonna kill us gers.... again.... wat does he wan anyway? doing as much as we can for tat few hrs and even more and he still wanna KB.... ang mos... urgh....

hse-ing.... rewiring the whole hse also my prob... fine... as long as dun touch my future lui for my future hse for investments i close one eye... if even touch one cent of it i make sure u spit it out for me...

side track abit... dunno is cos nv take my medications or wat... hormones are like rushing into my brain TOO much... plus the female's bio clock is ringing again...(from wat i rmb.. its the third time it's happening) urgh~~~ can stop or not..... got enough issues for me to settle liao lor... this hav to happen now.... dun wan now mean dun wan now lor... already planned le so dun screw my mind up liao lah.... if can hav it i already hav one liao lah...

too many things to note... dun wanna type le.. wait i emo again... not a good period of time to do so... where's my silver lining?? shall switch off my mind during the weekends and just enjoy the chance to rest and recharge...

acting weird....

had a good weekend... get to see dar.. spend the niteZz with him... love hugging him to slp sia... too bad not a good time of the month.. wahhaah... maybe cos of this hormones is acting up super weird.... shall see wat happens the next few days... maybe rape him.. lol~~~

boring~~

work's a bore today... did nth much the whole day... its killing me lor... dunno wat to do sitting there... buay tahan sia... either its super busy where i cant finish my work.. or its too slack till i wanna slp... grrr... waste my life sia....

trim my hair today... like at least 2 months later?? sun really rmb when's the last time i trim it.. only notice my hair like getting messy... now its so much more 'tidy' le... happy.... shall wait for it to get even longer now....

sth is wrong with me... think is hormone surge or sth... keep having weird 'urges'.... cldnt help it... cant shake these ideas out of my head... keep thinking of the same thing over and over again... argh!!! any medication tat lowers hormones???!!!

a lil break...

sebei sianZz... portable modem spoilt.. now leeching other ppl's one... wahahah... so long nv come online... so many shows and anime i havnt watch... urgh~~~ where got time to update sia~~ work also like shit... everyday see diamension til i sot liao... i need english words~~ not numbers!!!

been sick for a long time also.. half dead most of the time at work or off work... mood also not good... but dun hav the energy to really shoot...(well at least ima better now.. left my irritation cough to settle...) but its dar's turn to be sick... haiZz... think he also stress over alot of things... and me stepping on his tail like most of the time....

btw... 7th month now aka ghost month... not gonna stay over tat often ba.... not bery nice also... its also the time of the yr where i'll auto be more quiet.... more solemn.... not a good period of time for me... used to love the ghost month.. now kinda hate it.... watever... shall not comment so much about it...

shall bath take med and slp... tml meeting dar dar~!

45 Things Girls Love But Won't Ask For

45 Things Girls Love But Won't Ask For

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her
24. Make her feel loved.
25. kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!!!!*
26. don't lie to HER.*
27. DON'T cheat on her.*
28. take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.*
31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.*
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).*
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.
36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.*
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.*
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.*
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible*
41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS*
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.*
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.*
45.sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

fruitful day.... to me....

hmmm.... tiring day for me.. spend the whole day clearing out unwanted stuff and cleaning my freaking messy and dusty room... oggie... its still messy... but i can see my bed and the top of my tv console now.... tats a good start... rite?? next thing gonna do is clear my cupboard and drawers... so many stuffs~~ OMG!!! its like nv ending sia~

evening time nth much... went out awhile.... hang out... pass some time.... aft which tok to dar on the phone when i got hm... always dun wanna slp when i ask him to... so stubborn... (y men are so stubborn ar?? ask them things... dun say.. tell them to do... dun do.. urgh......) finally got him to go slp... haiZz... think tml he gonna be shag sia... cfm got OT de lor...

nth much happen then after.... tok to my fr regarding some issues... had a good chit chat.... didnt even realize the time... lol~~~ then shoo tat person to slp...

think ima gonna slp to.. or else tml gonna look like crap.... now... think happy thoughts... think happy thoughts... happy dreams... happy dreams....

current thought

i hate being kept in the dark... i hate lies even more.....

neverending dream.......

aft waiting one week of dar's reservist (still got one more week to go.... urgh...) finally get to spend time with him... stuck to him like glue for the pass 3 days... so happy... get to cuddle/snuggle up with him to slp... (more worthwhile since its been raining like siao for the pass 3 days... he is so warm~~)

feels so secure with him around me... love to hear his heartbeat while falling aslp... love it when before i snooze he's the last person i see... and love it even more when he's the first person i saw when i wake up... i enjoy every moment with him... when we watch anime together... when i help him out with his army clothes... when i just lay on bed watching him change into his army uniform for his mobilisation movement...(oh yes... uniform... killer~~)

i love it when he always whisper to me good nite and 'i love u' at nite... (tats all i hav to know...) i adore his expression when he look at me and say such things to me... i actually love the fact when he tease me everytime i blush at his comments... i just love to hav him with me~~

can i stay with u forever?? can i just marry u now?? i can just continue with this sweet dream of mine....