last final look... final salute!!~~

few more days my old toilets are no more... last look at them... from wat i know my unit is the last one to do along my corridor... so all my neighbours come over see the toilets... last chance liao... aft which is bye bye!!! will miss ya!!!~~ though u're dirty and disgusting... u both hav serve us well enough for the past 30 yrs liao.... wahhaha... anyway... my both toilets are disgusting lah hor... dun vomit.... (wat to do.. use near 30 yrs liao lor...)

my room toilet... eeeeuuuuu.....

kitchen toilet.... faints*

finally!! renovating my toilets!!

yeah~~ aft waiting for SSSOOOOO LLLOOONNNGGGG.... finally its my unit's turn to 'upgrade' the toilets... damn.... so many things to do..... weeks before they come do hav to wrap the whole hse up... sian lor... pack everything... wrap everything... hide everything...(my mom went to 'hide' my TF vcds.... now dunno where liao.. sad!!)

already move almost all my toys over to my bros hse... now only left like the bulky fixtures and fittings...(mainly the shelves and big plastic drawers etc etc.... wat to do.. my mom like garang guni... everything also wanna keep....) anyway... gonna just dump all onto the bed and cover them up... too lazy to really find place to put them.... my whole hse looks like a crime scene or sth like tat.... everything like tio tagged... cannot touch... sad man...

the sad sad pics of my crime scene hse....

my freaking room.... like shit sia....

the living(or dead) room....

kitchen....

heng ima staying at bro place for those 10 odd days... or else i surely die from all the dust inhalation...

sec day of reno...

oggie.... just one day before the reno starts i move to bro hse... so..... wat shit happens on the first day i dunno.. i only know itsa damn dirty cos of the dust and cement/tile ripping.... went back on the sec day... look see look see abit... also tabao food for mom... she nv really eaten a proper meal since the first day....

the kitchen main water pipe...

where my kitchen sink go?

kitchen toilet ceiling....

kitchen toilet floor...

my room toilet ceiling area...

toilet flooring....

third day... cementing day~~

oggie... nth much happens today...same thing... tabao food back... took a peep on wats happening to the toilets... apparently they just cement the flooring only... nth much... wahhaha....

room toilet...

kitchen toilet....

oggie... i was bored... so took these 2 pics directly downwards from the kitchen window...

day dunno wat... kinda lost count...

really starting to dun rmb dates liao... imagine... work then rush to hm.. then rush back to bro hse... shag sia... somemore ppl who knows me all know tat i slp usually at 2am... but lately i 11 plus i gone liao... wahahah.... body and mind like gonna cant tahan liao lor... anyway... tiling of the walls and flooring.... not done in one day... on diff dates....

my room de... blue blue blue!!! yeah!!

kitchen toilet... beige... wat to do... mom wans this colour.... eekkk...

amost done!!~~~

i only rmb i was a thurs... took leave to supervise them.... super dirty!! ARGH!!! but oggie lah... my toilets are completing liao lor... just a few more other minor things these ppl can get lost liao and i can get my room back....

near completion look: my toilet.... nice!

kitchen toilet...

heading to lala land~~

Sun was jenn's wedding dinner... went with dar... wah liao... he go wear shirt!!(my weak spot~~) i see him i lua liao... dun dare look directly at him sia.... keep looking at other places while toking to him... and he was teasing me about it... damn him!!~~ he look so shuai~~ (heng he not working in business sector... i cant imagine if i meet him aft work for dinner or wat sia... sure everyday go hm with weak legs de lor....) thinking back at the time i saw him wore tat while web cam-ing with him... *ahem ahem... no comment ya?*

today is 拍拖 half yr le.... didnt do much lah... only went to a jap restaurant for dinner... (y spend so much!!~~ i see the receipt i also heart pain ar....) dunno y dar wanna bring me to such place for wat... i dun need to eat good food wat... i just wanna hav dinner with u.... tat simple.... i dun ask for much when it comes to such thing de wat... but i think dar just wanna do sth 'special' ba....

come to think of it... already half yr le... dunno is call fast or slow...i keep thinking we're like just together... how time flies... wahhaha.... (does it mean u left 2 and 1/2 yrs to go??) and for some reason... the more i see him the more ima in love with him.... (and i just cant help myself from looking at him....)*shit... missing him now even when ima on the phone with him at this bery moment...* and the 'way' we got together... simply weird if u ask me... come to think of it.. i shd thank his ex.... thanks for making him feel like shit then hor... thanks for 'tormenting him for those past few days... and finally... thanks for leaving him ar... (yes.. ima being sarcastic here...)

anyway.... i dun wan him to think about those time anymore... he suffer enough liao lah... regardless is tat past r/s or other issues.... i just wan him to be happy now and in the future....

PS:tat day dar told me sth... gave me chills.... he say when he was young also study at my kindergarten.. but dun rmb izzit my class or not... oggie... this is starting to scare me liao.... 没有那么准吧??!!....

PPS: dar.... if u continue to be the way u are rite now... 我会死在你的手里的~~

loving you daily....

happy... happy happy happy... kekekek.... ytd went out with dar....(just for movie lah.. nth much...) able to hold his hand... able to hug him... able to kiss him... sebei happy sia~~~(suddenly i think i bery easily contented de leh...) i feel like i super long time no see him le lor... now everytime i see him i always think he getting more and more yandao.. wahahah... die lah.. if really like tat then how sia... is i getting crazy or if its true got gers like him how ar??!!!

anyway i notice one thing... really REALLY long time nv take bus or mrt with him le... kinda miss those days where we just stood by each other... hugging each other while waiting for our stop... well.. got pros and cons lah... got car...means can spend time with each other longer.... since can go back later compared to if hav to take mrt.... taking bus rides... another form of experience... (i dun really care wat form lah... just wanna know he's beside me can le...)

just now was toking to him on the phone... went to ask him... when he was with his ex gf.... whether he got like other gers or not... can give me straight answer no... wahahah... dunno leh... he is aft all... a GUY... WAHAHA!!! but i ask tat as a general qus..... curious only... dun wan him to get the 'wrong' idea tat ima thinking of sth at the back of my head...

btw!! today was toking to joey... she was toking about her 'family planning'.... wanna hav another child or sth... tat sets me thinking also... min 2 kids.. max 3 kids... 1 boy 1 ger.. or 2 boys 1 ger... which brings to the issue of my age... when shd i hav kids... when shd i stop having kids.... with tat... when shd i get married... when aft married shd i hav my first child... hmmm... no matter how i calculate also like wrong de... getting old... kinda like no time to spare le... time is ticking... (die.. if i continue to think about it... my bio clock gonna go hay wire again...) but hor.. such things cant rush also.. it not like i wan will get it... and its not like MY issue only... aiya... see how lah... dunno how to approach this issue also lor... i shall set this thing aside first ba...

oh ya... next mon is anniversary... dunno wat to get or do tat day... hopefully he dun go crazy and spend alot... even if we just sat by the beach and do absolutely nth i also oggie de.... (anything is fine with me... i dun wan u to spurge on me... dun u dare buy unicorn for me.. i will fan lian de.... just wan u can le...)

anyway~~ gonna go slp le.. wait dar dar scold me again ar~~ tml got work!!

PS: really lah... i really STILL dun get y u like me... ima oddball...

clueless....

sian... dunno wat to do sia... freaking lost... see him work till like siao... immune system also like failing him.... i see liao also heart pain.... cant do much also... i dun wanna see him so shag... i dun wan him to work so hard....(somemore is other ppl's crap...) i know he's bery responsible person(maybe too responsible...) i cant stop him if he insist of finishing his work or wat.... but ima bery concern about him.....

furthermore, whenever i say things to him like fail to deaf ears.... plus cos is his working pattern lately i keep throwing tantrums at him... ima not trying to make his life hard or wat... ima not trying to be difficult also... i just think tat work is only one aspect in life.. no need to input almost 24 hrs into it... neglecting all other things in life...(not toking about me rite now...) y is he 'tormenting' himself so much... i really dun mind is he has no time for me.... but not when its no time to even rest for himself... or get ready for his upcoming exams...

ima really at a loss rite now... i dunno how to deal with this whole thing le.... everytime i hear his voice on the phone i feel sad.. i feel pain... i just wanna cry knowing i cant do anything for him.... i just wan him to be happy and support him....

restless....

still feeling unwell... now even more sian.... just 2 days aft i tio go hospital... dar's sis is also vomiting hav having diarrhoea... she's now still at NUH.... haiZz... dunno wats wrong with her also... only know tat dar is sitting outside waiting for her....(hope's she well...) with the air con on full blast... was sneezing like mad when i was toking to him...(he sound super tired...)

kinda worried for dar.... this week he's really shag... now.. with the 2 'early' trips to the hospital... i dunno how much longer he can tahan before it's his turn to fall ill... somemore he tml cfm hav to ot again...(being having ot plus classes for the whole week... plus today got test...) haiZz... i really hope he's fine... i dun wanna see him suffer leh...

PS: u like tat how i slp.....