dunno wat am i doing lah... extremely upset... i feel misunderstood.. i feel extremely alone... i feel hurt.... for some reason i think he dun get my point... i dun blame him for anything... he got his reasons for doing so... reasons for saying such comments... but i also hav my personal reason to act the way i am... reasons to answer his constant same qus with a constant same answer..... i dunno y cant he at least try to think from my point of view... try to put himself in my shoes... y does he hav to think ima over reacting over 'nth'.... y for some reason i feel tat he's trying to make me accept his reasons as the valid one and rebuke over mine??
i also dunno y every time when i try to tell him things tats in my mind(which actually i dun wanna tell cos it will cfm blow up into a big matter) he think ima thinking of a reason to ditch him... all i wanna do is try to tell him wats wrong with me.... wat am i thinking when ima alone... when there is no one for me to tok to.... franking speaking... every time my mind is messed up(like now) i nv once thought of breaking up.... at most is requesting a cool off period...(which till now i nv bring it up.. knowing it will kinda destroy him) if this continues.. i think i will become even more withdrawn....
i do not wish to hav an argument with him.... i plainly just wan him to know things..... things i usually dun say out... things tat i hav to muster guts to say it out.... and of course with tat said.... i wish he wld just listen... and not flare up like just now... think i just made the rest of the week worse for the both of us...
the more i love u it seems... i more hurt ima having....
cos i hav to bottle everything in... as i dun bear to lose u....
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