uppp!!! and downy~~~

long long time no write anything in here le... busy month since got cny... oh well.. the usual stuff... time to really find a job now.... wahaha...!!

like been riding a roller coaster this month.. lots of ups and downs... hmmm... downs are more ba.... but the ups are good... good enough for me to do sth about it....

PS: so wanna slp rite now but so bloody awake~!

needing some time to think...

clean up clean up~

oggie... left 2 weeks to cny... crunch time!!! woke up early to clean my disgusting room.. and to give some tender loving care to my bunch of laogongs~

wah biang... fingers wanna break cleaning the nooks and cranny of these toys... vacuum cannot.. cloth cannot.. toothbrush also cannot.... alamak! mom was like commenting(again...) how messy my room is.. wth... wat u expect.... this is the result of having a tom boyish daughter who only likes toys... wahahaha!! got into abit of the prob placing my laogongs back.. (since open another 4 boxes...) but managed to do so.. think i hav to really get the detolf for my gundams....

anyway... clean up's done.... next on the list.. paint job!! light blue!! woohoo!!! no more filthy green!!

needing some time to think...

braces...

oggie.. just back from dentist and makan... took 1 and half hrs... took a nap.. dun really care wat he was doing.. no pain or wat... looking good....

to all the peeps who told me its a torture and alot of pain... u are a wuss!!!

needing some time to think...

fireworks~

keeping it short... sth about fireworks... two diff stories... dunno who is telling the truth.. dunno who to trust...

thus.... whoever it is... you better start rmbing wat actually happened and wat u actually see/do.... you better come clean with me.... ima not gonna probe now... dun wait till i really start probing....

i hate being lied to.... i hate being kept in the dark... i hate being the last to know..... wan me to continue trusting u? then pls at least try... dun say about losing the trust... how about to retain the trust from me....

needing some time to think...

free gifts~

was thinking go pei dar to garage... (not much time to pei each other soon..) but since he dun need me i went out with someone else... wahhaha!!!

went for early dinner at town then went sightseeing and shopping... cny coming.... wow.... so many things on sale... but nth much i wanted... dunno izzit me not liking to shop or really i hav a low shopping drive....

however still saw sth i like... but dun bear to get it...(rather spend the lui on sth else more practical...) but still... i got it.... wahahah... so nice of him to get it for me... will treasure it de!

went to the DNA bridge(or wat u call it hexi sth sth bridge...)nice view of the city lights... though quite alot of ppl... still enjoy tat moment... its been a long time since i went sightseeing... sat along the riverside at esplanade... tok about alot of things... my stuff.... his stuff... long time ago stuff....

hear sth during the conver... it bugs me... wonder wat it is.... shall know tml ba...

needing some time to think...

first appt of the yr~

just back from dental appt.... put separators.... next week.... the real things~ now i feel weird... duhZz.... heading back to spring cleaning...

needing some time to think...

loneliness is hard to swallow.... also hard to repel...

these few days.... not a good period of time.... alot of things happening to the ppl around me... ppl breaking up... ppl hav family probs... even my buddy... oh man.... her 'dad' passed away...

though ima not really involved in any of these circumstances... i got ask for mental or spiritual help... especially today... me.. a 26 yr old person... trying to tok sense into a person(my buddy's mom) twice my age... wat kind of advice can i give to a person who experience so much more in life... who guided me when i was young then.... wat can i offered to her tat will ease her disturbed mind and heart... the only thing tat linked me to her is i know wats she's going through... i know wats in her mind... i know how bad it can get.... and i know the short cut to get better....

ima not a preacher... nor ima saint.... but i do hope wat i said today to her will help her.. help her gain tat self worth tat she's losing... help her gain tat confidence tat she shared with him... and help her gain trust in the lord tat guided and made her wat she is today....

my bf today also gave a pet tok... lol... to his fr.... think he is also always the person whom ppl think of when got prob... which is good.... it means u're appreciated... u're in tat 'special spot' in tat person's mind.... (to bf: do a good job hor~)

the prob with ppl is when tio prob... they dun hav much ppl they can trust to bare their hearts out... itsa not a fault.. its just... human to think such way... with so much hurt... they dun wanna risk tio stabbed again.... i mean.... i was like tat last time... of course ima the extreme type... however its 'dangerous' to be left alone also.... if no one cares.. no one even ask 'how are u lately', 'wanna hang out someday?'.... thus... impt to find someone u trust... someone whom u can say anything.... think of it as helping urself and not burdening other....

anyway... there is a limit to wat i can do..... but if this is all u need to get u moving.. i dun mind being there.. rite beside u....

needing some time to think...

xmas xmas.....

nth much to report about... xmas also dar's bday.... didnt get anything for him.. dunno wat to buy also.... like everything he needs i gotten for him liao.... so just got him a cake... did nth also... quiet days were spent... thought got some argument...but tats taken care of...

next up..... new year.... so fast another yr gone like tat... dun wanna think tat much any more....


needing some time to think...

alone time...

exams is starting for dar... means no time for me.... or any else tat matters.... doesnt matter.. its crunch time now... do or die~~!!!

do hope he dun over do it and stress out... shall think wat to do for the next few days....

jiayou jiayou jiayou~!~!
needing some time to think...

weird...

been window shopping for some time... dun hav any feel for anything at all... dunno wat to get also... nth seems to interest me.... nth seems to hav tat omph....

needing some time to think...