weirdom~

hell of a LONG POST~

hmmm.. apart from the recent post about iwhite4... its like 2 months i nv really touch this place.... and for some weird reasoning... ppl start coming in... viewing my post and commenting.. (nth tat i dislike about it.... since i already know i place my blog under open acc...) just really wonder y they are even interested in reading my post... nth extraordinary or wat.. just plain simple rants of everyday life... and definitely ima not xiaxue or steven lim.... wahhaha~~~
of course there might be the possibility tat they are spams but i dun think spams will type out nicely written english to the extend tat they can actually pinpoint certain things in a blog.... oh well can only say diff ppl hav diff taste in life... some common alike the majority of the human folk.. others abit more lending to the weird side....

anyway~ back to the old ranting and stupid thoughts in my head... didnt really touch blogging.. hmm.. y... maybe dun feel like writing alot out anymore.. (just plain lazy can??) or maybe with the facebook... at least there can get 'instant' responses from my buds... which is helpful at certain times.... or maybe my mode of thinking is changing... (is tat bad?? sheesh...) oggie lah.. will come back once awhile to rant about stuffs... besides... ima not really oblige to report to ppl about my where and when abouts....

time to say sth 'normal'... month of may... lotsa holis and almost middle of the year... shd be a 'happy month... but kinda sad month for me (and its only halfway through....!!) lots of bad mojo happening around me... sis in law's grandmom pass away... my best bud's mom sudden bad turn towards cancer..... (i might add... not much time left) my another bud.. who was suppose to get married this nov.. gonna call of the wedding cos the gf action.... my ex who is getting married this nov (also!) still dun wanna let go... (for like how long?? 10 yrs??) and etc etc.... (dun really wanna add on to the list of 'unfortunate' events....)

HaiZz... relationships between ppl is so complicated... often times ppl will write a line... but is tat a straight line or a wavy one?? is the line in fine print or bold.... lately i fret other other ppl's prob tat i tend to overlook mine own stuff... not tat ima complaining.... everything is fine between me and him..... everything is stable... (maybe too stable.. is tat consider complaining??) or shd i say stagnant.... and from wat i know.. nth comes good if sth is stagnant for too long....

ima not forcing nor ima pushing... but i really REALLY sucks if the ans is always dunno... then quietness... wth is tat suppose to mean.... i dun wanna assume... yet i also dun wanna probe into much much details yet... just find tat maybe for now its not the time to explore the issue.... for now... just walk and look...

once again.. pardon my jumpy post.... i just cant get myself too organize in such things....


needing some time to think...

woohoo~!

IPHONE 4 WHITE.... ENOUGH SAID...
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uppp!!! and downy~~~

long long time no write anything in here le... busy month since got cny... oh well.. the usual stuff... time to really find a job now.... wahaha...!!

like been riding a roller coaster this month.. lots of ups and downs... hmmm... downs are more ba.... but the ups are good... good enough for me to do sth about it....

PS: so wanna slp rite now but so bloody awake~!

needing some time to think...

clean up clean up~

oggie... left 2 weeks to cny... crunch time!!! woke up early to clean my disgusting room.. and to give some tender loving care to my bunch of laogongs~

wah biang... fingers wanna break cleaning the nooks and cranny of these toys... vacuum cannot.. cloth cannot.. toothbrush also cannot.... alamak! mom was like commenting(again...) how messy my room is.. wth... wat u expect.... this is the result of having a tom boyish daughter who only likes toys... wahahaha!! got into abit of the prob placing my laogongs back.. (since open another 4 boxes...) but managed to do so.. think i hav to really get the detolf for my gundams....

anyway... clean up's done.... next on the list.. paint job!! light blue!! woohoo!!! no more filthy green!!

needing some time to think...

braces...

oggie.. just back from dentist and makan... took 1 and half hrs... took a nap.. dun really care wat he was doing.. no pain or wat... looking good....

to all the peeps who told me its a torture and alot of pain... u are a wuss!!!

needing some time to think...

fireworks~

keeping it short... sth about fireworks... two diff stories... dunno who is telling the truth.. dunno who to trust...

thus.... whoever it is... you better start rmbing wat actually happened and wat u actually see/do.... you better come clean with me.... ima not gonna probe now... dun wait till i really start probing....

i hate being lied to.... i hate being kept in the dark... i hate being the last to know..... wan me to continue trusting u? then pls at least try... dun say about losing the trust... how about to retain the trust from me....

needing some time to think...

free gifts~

was thinking go pei dar to garage... (not much time to pei each other soon..) but since he dun need me i went out with someone else... wahhaha!!!

went for early dinner at town then went sightseeing and shopping... cny coming.... wow.... so many things on sale... but nth much i wanted... dunno izzit me not liking to shop or really i hav a low shopping drive....

however still saw sth i like... but dun bear to get it...(rather spend the lui on sth else more practical...) but still... i got it.... wahahah... so nice of him to get it for me... will treasure it de!

went to the DNA bridge(or wat u call it hexi sth sth bridge...)nice view of the city lights... though quite alot of ppl... still enjoy tat moment... its been a long time since i went sightseeing... sat along the riverside at esplanade... tok about alot of things... my stuff.... his stuff... long time ago stuff....

hear sth during the conver... it bugs me... wonder wat it is.... shall know tml ba...

needing some time to think...

first appt of the yr~

just back from dental appt.... put separators.... next week.... the real things~ now i feel weird... duhZz.... heading back to spring cleaning...

needing some time to think...

loneliness is hard to swallow.... also hard to repel...

these few days.... not a good period of time.... alot of things happening to the ppl around me... ppl breaking up... ppl hav family probs... even my buddy... oh man.... her 'dad' passed away...

though ima not really involved in any of these circumstances... i got ask for mental or spiritual help... especially today... me.. a 26 yr old person... trying to tok sense into a person(my buddy's mom) twice my age... wat kind of advice can i give to a person who experience so much more in life... who guided me when i was young then.... wat can i offered to her tat will ease her disturbed mind and heart... the only thing tat linked me to her is i know wats she's going through... i know wats in her mind... i know how bad it can get.... and i know the short cut to get better....

ima not a preacher... nor ima saint.... but i do hope wat i said today to her will help her.. help her gain tat self worth tat she's losing... help her gain tat confidence tat she shared with him... and help her gain trust in the lord tat guided and made her wat she is today....

my bf today also gave a pet tok... lol... to his fr.... think he is also always the person whom ppl think of when got prob... which is good.... it means u're appreciated... u're in tat 'special spot' in tat person's mind.... (to bf: do a good job hor~)

the prob with ppl is when tio prob... they dun hav much ppl they can trust to bare their hearts out... itsa not a fault.. its just... human to think such way... with so much hurt... they dun wanna risk tio stabbed again.... i mean.... i was like tat last time... of course ima the extreme type... however its 'dangerous' to be left alone also.... if no one cares.. no one even ask 'how are u lately', 'wanna hang out someday?'.... thus... impt to find someone u trust... someone whom u can say anything.... think of it as helping urself and not burdening other....

anyway... there is a limit to wat i can do..... but if this is all u need to get u moving.. i dun mind being there.. rite beside u....

needing some time to think...

xmas xmas.....

nth much to report about... xmas also dar's bday.... didnt get anything for him.. dunno wat to buy also.... like everything he needs i gotten for him liao.... so just got him a cake... did nth also... quiet days were spent... thought got some argument...but tats taken care of...

next up..... new year.... so fast another yr gone like tat... dun wanna think tat much any more....


needing some time to think...

alone time...

exams is starting for dar... means no time for me.... or any else tat matters.... doesnt matter.. its crunch time now... do or die~~!!!

do hope he dun over do it and stress out... shall think wat to do for the next few days....

jiayou jiayou jiayou~!~!
needing some time to think...

weird...

been window shopping for some time... dun hav any feel for anything at all... dunno wat to get also... nth seems to interest me.... nth seems to hav tat omph....

needing some time to think...

hibernate mode

shall not comment
shall not think
shall not do

shall follow blindly
shall listen
shall hibernate

shall not plan anything, not gonna happen if hav the heart to do so

needing some time to think...

boohoo...

i feel like crying... can i hav happy tears???

needing some time to think...

emo day.....

sick again.... caught a cold... must be the drizzle during the weekends... plus my face is not flaking.. its molting.. already cfm is sunburn.... most likely due to tat day spray car.... under the sun like 1hr plus.... sebei emo...

just book my next appt for dental... omg.. end of the month... faint... wait till neck long lor... and gonna extract another 4 teeth.. woohoo~~ high sia...

read sth today... made me think.. which is better... to get married or enjoy the endless period of a simple boy/ger relationship.....

needing some time to think...

shopping list..... urgh....

this is the list tat nv ends... it keeps on going on my fr... sebei sian... got more things to buy.. or in this case.... maybe buying.... camera... lappy.... hav to get a bag also.... oh ya... and paint for my room... y the things i wanna buy is always so expensive or difficult to get one... urgh..... nvm... sitex coming end of the month... shall window shop.... see got any good IT deals or not... or maybe not buying any of them at all.... not really a must lah....

all my weekends are book with some sort of event.... omg... y suddenly like so busy one... lol... oggie lah... at least got sth to do... now hav to think when shd i paint my room... sianZz.. hav to move everything again.... think hav to get it over and done with within 2 days.. or else gonna be hell....

shall ponder all these things for awhile... see wat is best ba....

needing some time to think...

Zzz....

250... 250.... 250... hmmm... shd i... shd i... shd i.... ponder... ponder.. ponder...

needing some time to think...

randomness....

i dun think its anything wrong posting sth tat random in fb.. dun know y u need to 'wat' me so loud and ask me y i type such things... already said random... if u wan u can go comment sth random also....

i dun like calling for one hr plus.. just to hold on the phone and say nth... nth at all... if so i dun see the point of 'waiting' everyday till the nite comes....

yea.... mood swing... blame it on the double cheese burger since itsa beef... ima being 'bullish'....

sidenote: dun wanna take my meds anymore.... screw my pimples.... screw my face... screw my hormones.... no freaking point in taking them anyway... waste effort, time and lui....

needing some time to think...

home..

reach hm like near one.... wow.... over slpt... dar gonna be half dead tml at work liao... not a bad weekend... the rain saved our lungs also.. wahahha...

been slpy for the past 2 days... must be the med... everytime take liao super drowsy... keep nodding off to dream land then back to reality again...

one thing i dun like... i dun know y dar dun wan me take pics of him.... not as though ima dumb enough to post those pics up in Fb wat... just wanna take for fun and ownself keep like also cant... haiZz... if so i shd be posting my own 'personal' pics of myself liao lor... dun wan take dun wan lor...


needing some time to think...

dumb blonde...

so yea.... took out the other side de wisdom tooth... now i can say ima dumb blonde liao... gonna be another week of 'hamburger face' syndrome... hell yea... i wan some ice cream!!~

dun understand y he dun wan my help... urgh... wats the point in all these....

needing some time to think...