heading to lala land~~

Sun was jenn's wedding dinner... went with dar... wah liao... he go wear shirt!!(my weak spot~~) i see him i lua liao... dun dare look directly at him sia.... keep looking at other places while toking to him... and he was teasing me about it... damn him!!~~ he look so shuai~~ (heng he not working in business sector... i cant imagine if i meet him aft work for dinner or wat sia... sure everyday go hm with weak legs de lor....) thinking back at the time i saw him wore tat while web cam-ing with him... *ahem ahem... no comment ya?*

today is 拍拖 half yr le.... didnt do much lah... only went to a jap restaurant for dinner... (y spend so much!!~~ i see the receipt i also heart pain ar....) dunno y dar wanna bring me to such place for wat... i dun need to eat good food wat... i just wanna hav dinner with u.... tat simple.... i dun ask for much when it comes to such thing de wat... but i think dar just wanna do sth 'special' ba....

come to think of it... already half yr le... dunno is call fast or slow...i keep thinking we're like just together... how time flies... wahhaha.... (does it mean u left 2 and 1/2 yrs to go??) and for some reason... the more i see him the more ima in love with him.... (and i just cant help myself from looking at him....)*shit... missing him now even when ima on the phone with him at this bery moment...* and the 'way' we got together... simply weird if u ask me... come to think of it.. i shd thank his ex.... thanks for making him feel like shit then hor... thanks for 'tormenting him for those past few days... and finally... thanks for leaving him ar... (yes.. ima being sarcastic here...)

anyway.... i dun wan him to think about those time anymore... he suffer enough liao lah... regardless is tat past r/s or other issues.... i just wan him to be happy now and in the future....

PS:tat day dar told me sth... gave me chills.... he say when he was young also study at my kindergarten.. but dun rmb izzit my class or not... oggie... this is starting to scare me liao.... 没有那么准吧??!!....

PPS: dar.... if u continue to be the way u are rite now... 我会死在你的手里的~~

loving you daily....

happy... happy happy happy... kekekek.... ytd went out with dar....(just for movie lah.. nth much...) able to hold his hand... able to hug him... able to kiss him... sebei happy sia~~~(suddenly i think i bery easily contented de leh...) i feel like i super long time no see him le lor... now everytime i see him i always think he getting more and more yandao.. wahahah... die lah.. if really like tat then how sia... is i getting crazy or if its true got gers like him how ar??!!!

anyway i notice one thing... really REALLY long time nv take bus or mrt with him le... kinda miss those days where we just stood by each other... hugging each other while waiting for our stop... well.. got pros and cons lah... got car...means can spend time with each other longer.... since can go back later compared to if hav to take mrt.... taking bus rides... another form of experience... (i dun really care wat form lah... just wanna know he's beside me can le...)

just now was toking to him on the phone... went to ask him... when he was with his ex gf.... whether he got like other gers or not... can give me straight answer no... wahahah... dunno leh... he is aft all... a GUY... WAHAHA!!! but i ask tat as a general qus..... curious only... dun wan him to get the 'wrong' idea tat ima thinking of sth at the back of my head...

btw!! today was toking to joey... she was toking about her 'family planning'.... wanna hav another child or sth... tat sets me thinking also... min 2 kids.. max 3 kids... 1 boy 1 ger.. or 2 boys 1 ger... which brings to the issue of my age... when shd i hav kids... when shd i stop having kids.... with tat... when shd i get married... when aft married shd i hav my first child... hmmm... no matter how i calculate also like wrong de... getting old... kinda like no time to spare le... time is ticking... (die.. if i continue to think about it... my bio clock gonna go hay wire again...) but hor.. such things cant rush also.. it not like i wan will get it... and its not like MY issue only... aiya... see how lah... dunno how to approach this issue also lor... i shall set this thing aside first ba...

oh ya... next mon is anniversary... dunno wat to get or do tat day... hopefully he dun go crazy and spend alot... even if we just sat by the beach and do absolutely nth i also oggie de.... (anything is fine with me... i dun wan u to spurge on me... dun u dare buy unicorn for me.. i will fan lian de.... just wan u can le...)

anyway~~ gonna go slp le.. wait dar dar scold me again ar~~ tml got work!!

PS: really lah... i really STILL dun get y u like me... ima oddball...

clueless....

sian... dunno wat to do sia... freaking lost... see him work till like siao... immune system also like failing him.... i see liao also heart pain.... cant do much also... i dun wanna see him so shag... i dun wan him to work so hard....(somemore is other ppl's crap...) i know he's bery responsible person(maybe too responsible...) i cant stop him if he insist of finishing his work or wat.... but ima bery concern about him.....

furthermore, whenever i say things to him like fail to deaf ears.... plus cos is his working pattern lately i keep throwing tantrums at him... ima not trying to make his life hard or wat... ima not trying to be difficult also... i just think tat work is only one aspect in life.. no need to input almost 24 hrs into it... neglecting all other things in life...(not toking about me rite now...) y is he 'tormenting' himself so much... i really dun mind is he has no time for me.... but not when its no time to even rest for himself... or get ready for his upcoming exams...

ima really at a loss rite now... i dunno how to deal with this whole thing le.... everytime i hear his voice on the phone i feel sad.. i feel pain... i just wanna cry knowing i cant do anything for him.... i just wan him to be happy and support him....

restless....

still feeling unwell... now even more sian.... just 2 days aft i tio go hospital... dar's sis is also vomiting hav having diarrhoea... she's now still at NUH.... haiZz... dunno wats wrong with her also... only know tat dar is sitting outside waiting for her....(hope's she well...) with the air con on full blast... was sneezing like mad when i was toking to him...(he sound super tired...)

kinda worried for dar.... this week he's really shag... now.. with the 2 'early' trips to the hospital... i dunno how much longer he can tahan before it's his turn to fall ill... somemore he tml cfm hav to ot again...(being having ot plus classes for the whole week... plus today got test...) haiZz... i really hope he's fine... i dun wanna see him suffer leh...

PS: u like tat how i slp.....

sick sick sick~~~

jialat sia... ytd tio food poisoning... tio drip somemore... wanna die liao.. vomit like no tml... diarrhoea like wat like tat... wanna cry dunno how many times liao lor.... dar hav to bring me to the dreaded place again... super sianZz... (feel bad for him... he has to take urgent leave again.. plus spend lui for the consultation....)

but i feel so loved... he took care of me the whole day....(though most of the time i was slping due to the med....) can see he's damn worried about me.... sorry dar... i wldnt eat chicken rice le... ima so touched by his actions throughout the whole day ytd... i will appreciate and love u even more~~

PS: back to med taking and slping time... urgh.....

loving each day

nth much happens these 2 days... ytd was mid Autumn fest... pei bf awhile then went hm earlier to help mom pray... (finally persuade her to let me stay at bro hse during the toilet renovation works...) woohoo!! time alone.. without other ppl disturbing me!!! (hmmm.. maybe one or 2 days can stay over at bf hse also... kekekek~~)

today went bf hse early... send his mom to work... slp for like 2 hrs... then while dar study for his CA...(he's freaking mad over one qus which took him like 2 hrs to finish) i was building my bibifly..(sorry.. forgot to take pics of progress....) but anyway... though did nth much today ima contented... as long as got time to spend with him.. can see him can le... i dun ask for much... but today i see him so frustrated over his mugging... and i cant help him also.... kinda feel bad... dunno how to cheer him up lor... i can only try not to disturb him as much as possible... hope he dun feel tat ima not caring enough... haiZz... emo sia...

kitty thoughts:
Oct now.. so fast nearing six month anniversary liao.... dun think will be doing anything... somemore it falls on a weekday... double sian... waahahah... already thinking wat to get for him liao... as for me.. i really cant think of anything i wan wor.... (or maybe cos the things i wan is exp.... wahahah!!!)

130am liao... slp time.. tml work.. urgh!!! i wan see laogong!

delighted week....

it has been a pretty good few days... been spending quite a few days with dar... including ytd...(finally... one day with only the two of us with no one to bother us at all...) he's weird though... so like a kid... and keep saying weird things... *hmmm... did u did sth outside i dunno har?* anyway... i enjoyed myself... long time nv like tat le... though only lasted a few hrs... ima super happy~~ hopefully in the future also will hav such good times(even if its for 2 hrs... pls~)

btw... for some reason when i met up with dar ytd.... he looks skinny... like slim down alot... especially his face lor... i can see his cheek bones liao.... i dunno wats wrong with me or him sia... izzit he stress over work/sch/sis's wedding or just me getting paranoid over him not eating or just missing him too much le.... dunno lah... as long as he's healthy and not over exerting himself can le.....

kitty thoughts:
hmmm.... tat day dar ask me when exactly did i start to like him... wah... diff to answer leh.. cos i myself also dunno when wor.... i only know before we're together he's an impt fr... i respect him alot...(mind u... when someone has my respect.. i listen to tat person de...) and i also know during tat time i already warn him le...(i knowing my own pattern... sure die one) but wat to do... he dun listen... still action so many.... i die in his hands liao lor...

i know ima getting more comfortable with him... (5 months liao hor.. not comfortable then really sth wrong with me le lor...) i like being with him all the time... i dun bear to see his suffer... i dun wan him to be sad... one look at him i feel genuinely happy... i like the way he is and i like tat he accepts who i am... i find him extremely cute... even if he's not doing anything... i find him intelligent even though i he's acting dumb most of the time... ima just happy to be able to find him again....

kitty's out of this world thoughts:
frs for 4 yrs.... lost contact for almost 13 yrs... hardly even contact even found each other... understands each other even dun explain much... being there when we need someone... being comfortable without even knowing... liking each other without knowing... till together....

hmmm.... complicate if u ask me.... y is all these things happening throughout these yrs... *notice the lil bow knot on the red string?* wonder wat will happen next... will it be good or bad..... wat is our dear Mr Yue Lao planning for us next??