~我爱麦芽糖~: June 2009

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

lonely cat

argh.... this is killing me..... sianZz... i feel so alone all of a sudden!!! y nobody around de.... EMO EMO EMO~~~

dear gonna OT till dunno wat time... then still say wanna meet me aft work regardless where i am later.... haiZz... i dun wan him to run up and down SG.... itsa gonna be tiring for him....

haiZz... wats wrong with me....

12am... update:
how i wish i can continue to hold on to ur hand...
how i wish i can just continue to hug u.....
how i wish time doesn't pass by so fast....
好想你阿~~

Sunday, June 28, 2009

emo turned happy cat....

sian day.... atm card tio retain by the machines all cos of the freaking uncle who cldnt wait for me to end the transaction.... withdraw lui halfway take my card then die die dun wanna give me back even though he knows its my card and its the top one of the deck... tmd... curse him sia... kns.... wo pui~~

argh.... then today dear work till so late..... pity him also.... sun still hav to OT to go clear prob.... and from like 7 plus till 6... siao one lor.... see him so pek chek over other ppl's shitcrap... can only sayang him and try to let him rest.... furthermore only hav like 4 hrs with him... emo.... i miss dear.....

these few days like not going well... haiZz....

anyway... ima not suppose to rant so much liao... actually come in here to blog about sth regarding dear....

i appreciate wat u do.... from the phone call u did to the front of my hse.... i really feel loved...
爱你~~!!

Friday, June 26, 2009

ECP meaningful pics....

first steps?

ah gong pro sia....

family day for the dad and 2 daughters

i dun get to fly kites with him....

cool... wedding shots by the sea...

they look like stranded or sth...

ECP day

went ECP for some 'soul searching' reach there like 410.. found an empty bench and just sat there for like 5 hrs writing... u know.. those lecture notepads like the size of exercise books... i wrote like 1/3 of the damn book.... woohoo... long time nv write so much liao lor...

nth much.. just random things... about daddy... about grandma hse... going to buy good food when he had a good month in business.... gatherings... weddings... and relatives.... daddy loves gatherings... and he always bring me along.... and intro me to everyone... making sure everyone heard my name and seen me at least once... hmmm... come to think of it... when i was young i kinda like going to such things.... itsa kinda like the long time father and daughter moment time..... but not now lor... pointless in my view... not the same.... its nv gonna be the same....

i hate gatherings.... especially weddings... its freaking not fair....

watever... nobody knows wat ima thinking or why am i thinking like this...

Thursday, June 25, 2009

slpless nite it will be...

12am sharp.... listening to 林俊杰会有那么一天 now.... was toking with dear.... he's rite... ima selfish... will try to understand his point of view more.... will do as he says...

i shall not reason... i shall not be insensitive.... i shall not weep toniteZz....

tml will be a new day... will search my soul by the sea.....

black thursday?

hmmm.... for some reason.... today everyone is looking for me...(ya... when i having pms.... bad mood period...) then everyone like got probs for me to settle de leh... kaoZz.. as though i no probs myself... i really REALLY need to charge consultation fees liao...

grr... if its impt issues then fine lah... i can voice my opinion.... but dun ask me about dumb qus and yet dun wanna listen to my suggestions... i dun wanna waste my time to help u think about a solution for it when u dun even bother to think about my advice furthermore i can use the same time to figure out my own probs which i think is more impt than urs..... y is everyone coming to me yet dun wanna listen... kaoZz.. i so free ar... u wan such services go call some chatline can... i not ur freaking dog who sit there infront of u and just tilt head thinking wat the hell u saying.....

another thing ar... y everyone is like testing my patience and pressing all the freaking red buttons... trying to see which one is the 'launch missile' izzit.... bery fun to see me turning pek chek izzit huh.... wah biang... today my blood pressure dunno raise how much liao lah... kaoZz... TMD.... tell u all to do this then pls dun tell me 'can dun wan' 'cfm cant de' or 'no lor'....or worse still... give me a 'argh' answer.... if so... pls ar... DUN TELL ME IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! IMA NOT A PERSON WHO GOES TO PPL WHO LIKE TO VICTIMIZE ONESELF!!!!~~~

first day of pms kanna such issues the whole FREAKING day... KNS.... NOW NEED LOTSA CHOCOLATE TO APPEASE MYSELF LIAO LAH... GONNA GET EVEN FATTER LIAO LAH.... SHITCRAP LAH!!! WAISTLINE GETTING THICKER AND THICKER LIAO... TMD... WHO CARES ANYWAY!!! ONLY I FREAKING CARE~~~

random thoughts.... part 2....

even if..... ima emoing.... when u ask wat wrong.... i'll say nth...
even if..... ima angry... when i see ur face... i'll smile without reason
even if..... ima bothered by things u did... when u ask y... i'll claim its sth small
even if..... ima down... when u just show up... i'll just light up
even if..... ima alone..... when i hear ur voice... i'll be contented

even if..... u're busy.... when i need u.... u're there for me
even if..... u're having a bad day when i ask y... u're try not to make me worry
even if..... u're on a diff page with me.... when i reason with u... u'll let me win
even if..... u're tired...when i wanna go out... u'll still drag urself to pei me
even if..... u're emoing.... when ima sad.... u'll still cheer me up

dreaming am i not
it seems so vague
u look so familiar
yet so foreign to me

u seems so cold in plain sight
yet warm when viewed deeper
i sense similarities
no matter how different

history is a memory from me
the present is a gift from u
the future i fear itsa only a flash
tat i do not wish to wake up
only to know its a dream

我躺在草地上,看着天上的星月
想着我们所做的,所讲的
我愿是细雨,能让你出现彩虹
愿你是阳光,能让我拥有温软
我的泪水,是因快乐而流
我的微笑,是因你而露出
我愿明早生起时,是我们两的心愿

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

gong kia~

yeah... pms come liao... sign of relieve.... wahahaha.... but sianZz half..... like getting later and later.... till i dunno when liao... haywire liao lor... dunno y like tat also..... urgh..... sth is wrong with me.....

anyway.... y dear so dumb~~~ i say bothered by it doesnt mean u hav to cut the plastic out from ur wallet~~!!!! wallet nice nice de go and cut.. mad ar u!!! i soOOoo petty de meh... grrr...... now wat... u having a wallet with a empty slot tat is deem useless... argh!!! i dunno wat to do with u le lah..... u big idiot!!!

老公....爱死你了~~~~!!!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

tiring and slpy day

urgh.. woke up in the morn to pei mom go bugis.... 初一 nia.... under the BLAZING SUN for like the full 4 hrs.... sian lor.... think my sunblock didnt last tat long... grrr... gonna slab on whitening lotion later....reach hm like 2 plus... wanna slp de... feel so slpy~~ but cant... wait slp liao no need to wake up go to another place liao....

then evening head to tp with Elaine... cele Michelle's bday... ate alot... 2 bowls of noodles plus nuggets plus 2 cups of bubble tea.... dunno y eat so much leh... really gonna gain unnecessary weight liao lah!! emo no two le....

ask dear to send me hm... also send Elaine back... one thing i didnt expect is alvin board the car... kaozz... i nv ask him to join in wor... i told him he can walk hm... so near his hse.... Zzzz... waste mine and dear's time....

oh man... i feel so bad... made him totally run round the whole of SG sia... he like so tired and pissed.... then i cant do anything for him.... emo.... hope de dun feel like kanna used or wat... think next time when i go tp i go hm myself.... its more realistic....

Sunday, June 21, 2009

day of loitering...

was suppose to go bugis.. but cos of the NDP rehearsal nv go(will be jam packed...) so we just went to 'the central'(at clarke quay) funny lor... say was suppose to go to CSC(china square central) but dear blur blur de(my fault rite??) in the end went there... cos also got one 'central' word... diao.. nth to say him ar.. blur till like tat... but.... cute lah... cant say much about tat... buay tahan him ar~~

walked there for awhile... nth much.. pretty quiet place though itsa sat... weird rite... then went to the riverside... lua lor.. then wat... btw... got ppl play the lame G-force thingy... screaming like mad... then we notice the gers were wearing dresses... diao... win lor... wear dress still can play tat ar??? ate choco cake at starbucks.... yeah!!! long time bo eat chocolate liao... craving for it....

then went to CSC... parked the car on the other side... hav to walk all the way to the other building... lol... dear so freaking restless!!! but we came upon rare sight... vintage and classic cars were parked there.... wow!!! u dun get to see those often!!(since gov only allow them to come out like 28 out of the 365 days.. worse than vampires~~) took a few pics...(darn nv bring my sis-in-law's 10mp cam.. hav to do with the 3.2mp hp cam... grrr.. gotta get a cam sia!!!) anyway... proceeded to CSC.. nth much to get there... but saw my masterpiece SS... drop price liao wor.. by like 110 bucks!!! woohoo~~~ i will get u one day... i swear~~!!!

rice... i see the black rice i went back to his hse for awhile.. since later having dinner with kenny weiwei and kelvin.... but when we go fetch kenny wei2 say cant go cos raining...(pls lah... got RAIN meh... few freaking drops will kill u ar?? the rain is acid ar??) tio fly aeroplane again... like we're pro pilots sia... dunno how many times liao.. i also lost count... but still go Queentown there with kenny.. had claypot then i rmbed... this is the like 4th time i eat black soy rice liao... diaoZz... and i wanna be fair... like not gonna happen sia... think i hav to gorge myself with more 豆花 or wat... or else ar.. jialat...

oh ya... poor dear... today park car dunno y nv see properly hit the pillar... wahaha... corner tio scratched... paint came off...(nvm lah hor... COE car mah.. not new one...) then park car at queentown forgot to lock car... wat is happening ar?? why u like getting more and more clumsy and forgetful ar?? (ya i know.. my fault again.. as u said.. the 'liping effect' *woOOooo*... ima freaking viral infection... ima affecting ur brain.. ima cancer... how ar???)

add bonus: dyed my hair black.. loving it~~ cos with black hair.... i look fairer!!!~~ wahahah~~~ and tml go blading!!! woohoo!!!~~~~

anyway... enjoy the 'rare glimpse' of the cars...

PS: 老公... 你真的是傻的~~

Friday, June 19, 2009

Shelf cleaning SS wiping day

today spent the whole aftn clearing my shelf and placing all my toys into boxes... now i know.. using a brush to clean the toys is freaking retarded!!~~ why in the hell i did tat to all of them!!! haiZz.... but no choice... hav to get to those hard to reach places to rid the dust...

once again.. another 'exercise' schedule done.... tons of pics.... will only left these 'temp memories' once my babies are shipped to bro hse le... emo.... my laogong~~~