Friday, December 31, 2010

loneliness is hard to swallow.... also hard to repel...


these few days.... not a good period of time.... alot of things happening to the ppl around me... ppl breaking up... ppl hav family probs... even my buddy... oh man.... her 'dad' passed away...

though ima not really involved in any of these circumstances... i got ask for mental or spiritual help... especially today... me.. a 26 yr old person... trying to tok sense into a person(my buddy's mom) twice my age... wat kind of advice can i give to a person who experience so much more in life... who guided me when i was young then.... wat can i offered to her tat will ease her disturbed mind and heart... the only thing tat linked me to her is i know wats she's going through... i know wats in her mind... i know how bad it can get.... and i know the short cut to get better....

ima not a preacher... nor ima saint.... but i do hope wat i said today to her will help her.. help her gain tat self worth tat she's losing... help her gain tat confidence tat she shared with him... and help her gain trust in the lord tat guided and made her wat she is today....

my bf today also gave a pet tok... lol... to his fr.... think he is also always the person whom ppl think of when got prob... which is good.... it means u're appreciated... u're in tat 'special spot' in tat person's mind.... (to bf: do a good job hor~)

the prob with ppl is when tio prob... they dun hav much ppl they can trust to bare their hearts out... itsa not a fault.. its just... human to think such way... with so much hurt... they dun wanna risk tio stabbed again.... i mean.... i was like tat last time... of course ima the extreme type... however its 'dangerous' to be left alone also.... if no one cares.. no one even ask 'how are u lately', 'wanna hang out someday?'.... thus... impt to find someone u trust... someone whom u can say anything.... think of it as helping urself and not burdening other....

anyway... there is a limit to wat i can do..... but if this is all u need to get u moving.. i dun mind being there.. rite beside u....

needing some time to think...

Monday, December 27, 2010

xmas xmas.....


nth much to report about... xmas also dar's bday.... didnt get anything for him.. dunno wat to buy also.... like everything he needs i gotten for him liao.... so just got him a cake... did nth also... quiet days were spent... thought got some argument...but tats taken care of...

next up..... new year.... so fast another yr gone like tat... dun wanna think tat much any more....


needing some time to think...

Thursday, December 16, 2010

alone time...


exams is starting for dar... means no time for me.... or any else tat matters.... doesnt matter.. its crunch time now... do or die~~!!!

do hope he dun over do it and stress out... shall think wat to do for the next few days....

jiayou jiayou jiayou~!~!
needing some time to think...

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

weird...

been window shopping for some time... dun hav any feel for anything at all... dunno wat to get also... nth seems to interest me.... nth seems to hav tat omph....

needing some time to think...

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

hibernate mode


shall not comment
shall not think
shall not do

shall follow blindly
shall listen
shall hibernate

shall not plan anything, not gonna happen if hav the heart to do so

needing some time to think...