finally.... tong till today... can get some deserve rest liao.... been like working alone for almost the whole freaking month... kns... i not robot lor... robot also will get spoilt de lor.... now dun even dare weight myself.... just one week ago my weight drop to 40kg liao... WTH... its like one more KG ima in the 30's zone liao... can proclaim myself as a POW....(prisoner of work i mean...) dun care ar.... mon not going to work also... not my prob... gonna MIA... wahahha....!!! i did wat i can liao.... dun expect more from me le.... dar also hav been stress over work and sch... keep ranting about it to me... haiZzz... my own issue also alot... but still hav to try to cheer him up... however... due to the fact both of us not in good mood lately... alot of small conflicts keep happening... but i believe things will work out for the both of us... we both care and love each other too much to lose each other le....today aft one hell work week get to see dar... really all the tiredness like dun feel it liao..... but dun wanna spend too long with him... he still got tutorials to finish and tml got work... haiZz.. wat to do.... hopefully he can rest well tonite....heading to bed also.... hope to dream about him tonite....
went to work today... nth much happens.... peaceful day... lol... just the way i like it...nv cele also... dar got work and class... dun expect much from him also... dun wanna pin any hopes on anyone....ytd dar came over awhile to 'bai nian' then we went to hub walkie abit... dunno wat i ate... feel nausea all of a sudden... then i dun wan go hm... went back his place to rest...dar was so tired from these few days... fell aslp quite fast.... took his keys to open door so to go hm myself... think he heard me going off... die die wan send me hm... haiZz.. stubborn lil kid... when parked his car at my place it was just over midnite... he lean over softly sang bday song to me while lightly clapping his hands... so cute.... so sweet.... love him to bits...
finally work till thursday liao... last day before the holis... woohoo!!! long weekends for me... wldnt be going back to work till the 18th... thought gonna hav a peaceful day... i was so wrong... morn was peaceful... clearing my shit as usual and other crap falling from the sky...lunch come back hell comes liao... wah kaoZz...tio gan like no tml like tat... for tat freaking 2.5hrs ar... dunno how to live ar..... then i also dunno wats wrong with dar... things i say to him nv get into his head... go and send flowers over to my place..... the delivery man dunno how to come go call me tio gan once liao... then come deliver tio gan again... totally sian ji bua ar.... dunno y he go do tat for wat... already told him dun try to do anything funny or do things tat will screw me up during work... nv listen.... dun understand wana give cant give in person de meh... or in his case.. already say didnt get anything for me then still do these things...wats worse is tat the flowers are red in colour.... another thing i dun understand.... i dun believe he dunno i dun like red and pink.... i rmb clearly i got tell him before in his car i dun like roses even.... i really dunno wat he trying to do... ima already half sian over the month liao and he is like dunno doing wat... argh.... dun wanna complain to him also... dun wanna upset him since its his 'xing yi'.... just gonna keep quiet about it....no mood to say anything to him also... his holi is all screwed up by his colleague... means my holi also screwed.... he already piss off.. dun wanna piss his even more... lately i really nth to tok to him... seems like the things i say he always not happy also... always gave him the impression tat ima shooting or forcing him... dunno lah.... shall not tok so much already.... also no mood to say anything lah....shall await till all the 'major' dates pass by....
ima gonna say the same thing... I HATE FEB!!!~~nth comes good for me during feb every single yr... especially tis yr since CNY is also in feb... grrr.... super low spirits.... dun even know where to start ranting even... haiZz... actually freaking used to my mood swing in feb every year....CNY... same stupid things... everything i hav to settle... dunno my bro is for wat de... just rot there one... kaoZz... no time for myself also... sebei sianZz half liao....vday this yr coincidences with cny.... means no need to cele... no biggie diff for me anyway... since i nv get to cele vday one... think for so many yrs only cele once.... tats it... so to me its just another normal day for me whether i got bf or not....bday... ahahha... dun even bother with it.... same thing.... nv cele one... i dun even rmb having a small bday cake for me.... think i nv had a bday cake... watever..... no many ppl bother to even say happy bday... wat to do.... my bdate is kinda diff to rmb.... so once again.. itsa normal day...and for some weird reason... i always hav some sort of dispute with my close ones when its just before my bday/vday... every single yr is like tat... like curse or sth.... ppl is like stepping on my tail every single day.... i dun even wanna flare up or wat... dun bother about it le....one good thing about feb is tat itsa short month..... can faster end it.... urgh.... still got 2 more weeks to tahan till march.... when is this gonna end....
nearing new yr..... urgh... so tired... past few days nv slpt well... keep waking up... dar suggest go slp at his place... ytd reach his place like 10pm... no one came to open the freaking door... haiZz.. already hav a bad day le still got such shit happening to me... nvm... had my dinner alone then wait for dar to come back from sch... both of us so tired... lol... nv tok much to each other... bath then he went to do some tutorials... was watching some tv before i slp... but see dar do tutorials scared i disturb him... ask him to off the tv but he dun wan... think he continue to do like half hr? dunno... was halfway in lala land liao... wahahah... rmb he kinda tired then keep his stuff off lights and tv le.... spend some quality time(finally alone ar..) together before falling aslp.... i rmb he waking up saying 'shit'... wahaha!!! (woke up late) then rmbing he stroke my hair... softly told me he heading to work.... woke up awhile... kiss him... and told him bye.... i stared at the room door when he closes it... suddenly feel lonely.... listening to him opening and locking the main gate plus door and his foot steps before falling back to a short slumber...ytd really had a good slp.... think he is really the main cause of it... i feel bery safe with him around me.. i literally get into a 'dreamy' mode' once he beside me....(depends how u define 'dreamy') then he not around i bery awake... lol... he's my slping pill~~PS: before the day ends i rmb looking at him while he finishes my remaining dinner.... for some reason i think he like getting skinny... maybe ima imagining things again... but anyway... he sure gonna get fat coming CNY...PPS:really thankful i hav dar with me.... loving him more with each passing day.... hmmm... maybe when young i already like u.... i dunno...(maybe tats y i keep pestering u last time... lol!!!~~)老公永远是我的!!~~~PPPS: weekend heading out... see got clothes to buy or not... sianzz... gonna be broke....
