contented....

oggie... the last few days at work was kinda fun... alot of funny incidents happened... kinda loosen my mood up abit... at least not as piss as before liao.... hopefully tml wldnt start another round of hell le...

finally...!!! aft a week of pain anger sickness and hell... i get to meet dar... so miss him~~(think ima getting mad over him le...) was literally stuck to him the whole day... dun wanna even let go of his hand when we watch movie.... i dun even rmb i was tired or angry for the week... ima always happy when ima with him... (or maybe i like teasing him??) i love the lil actions he do... the way he toks... the way he tease me... and the way he always manage to cheer me up....

but only managed to be by his side like a couple of hrs due to 'other shitty commitments'... but its enough for me... ima happy just to see him... (hope he's not emo-ing cos of the time constraints...)

i just wanna look at him the whole day.... i just wanna mess up his hair... i just wanna touch his face... i just wanna hear his voice.... i just wanna hold his hand.... i just wanna hug him the whole time... i just wanna be by his side.... always.... AAaaaAhHHhHHhhhh!!!! i wan my laogong~~~

PS: i will always love u no matter wat... wo de jiang shi laogong~~

fucking bad day!!!

FREAKING HATE EVERYONE!!~~

NOW DUN BOTHER ME!!!

tormenting myself....

my mind is so bloody messed up... i dunno whether wat i do is rite or wrong... or whether will i regret later... i only know tat i hav to make a decision... pls stop blaming me for wat i decided to do....

anyway... lately having nightmares... over and over again... almost about the same thing... only diff settings... always about ppl asking me qus... tat qus.... tat qus which i dun wanna answer and will not answer to anyone one else except me... this is really getting on my nerves... i cant get a decent rest..(somemore work is like shit now...i need all the rest i can get!!!) furthermore now is the 7th month... kaozz..... retribution izzit... must punish me then happy ar.... grrrr....

another thing.. though ima getting fatter....(not one bit happy about it....) ima getting more and more pale with each passing day..... weird sia.. eat so much but like not getting any nutrients like tat... hav to think of sth to deal with this issue...

body also getting weaker... these few days keep having the 忽冷忽热 symptoms... or worse... will be sweating but will also be having cold shivers and goosebumps... think hav to eat more nourishing food liao... more essence of chicken le....

why am i like torturing myself lately.... wat is wrong with me....

side-note: few days ago pei joey fetch her son from childcare... seeing so many kids... kinda irritating though... but there is one kid who looks exactly like u... and he keep staring at me like i owe him sth.... creepy.... but anyway.. tats not the point.. the point is tat seeing how joey and zander (i think tats how the son's name is spelt) react to each other.... haiZz... was having thought of my own for those few days....

mentally unstable....

dar just started sch le... five yrs in NTU.. FIVE FREAKING YRS.... urgh.... why... WHY!!!~~~ sebei sianZz.... gonna be lonely most of time le.... hmmm... tats not really the prob... my bio clock is like bugging me lately.... well at least i got work to occupy my mind with... so dar... no need to worry about me....

also lately kinda in low spirits... hai... actually really dunno wat to do... kinda like no one to turn to... no one can understand me.... somemore its like make wat decision also like wrong de... now for the time being i just hope ima not too alone.... and try not to stray my mind too far off.....

great..... ima freaking starting to screw myself up....

FREAKNG MOOD...

F****ING PISS, UPSET, ANGRY, AGITATED.... I HAV BO FREAKING OPINIONS!!~~ NOW GET OUT OF MY BLOG~~~

hmmmm.... long weekend ahead....

ima so bloody sick... since fri already start to cough... then the haze is coming (hi!! again... welcome back!!) and for the past 3 days i didnt slp well... always wake up in one hr intervals cos of my wheezing.... even if i take my inhaler it doesnt help.... (guess its getting worse...) ytd finally went to see doc aft tahan-ing for so long.... freaking ex lor... 68 bucks for 3 med nia.... wat to do... hav to get a stronger inhaler *purple colour one* (got steroid in it sia!!) dun think will be using tat much... dun wanna be to reliant to it... i still wanna only use the blue one if i hav a choice.... wanna see dar but he see me so sick he rather hav me stay at hm....

but.... why ytd dar so bai chi one... already said of tired then no need to come over to see me le....just cos i say i wan u hav to chiong down from ur workplace aft u ot till 930... (mad lor u...) ya... ima elated to see u.... but also upset tat u did... see u so shag... ima like part to blame for it... hope u dun overexert urself.....

anyway... this weekend gonna be a long one... cos national day coming... means extra holi one mon... woohoo!! but havnt thought about wat to do leh... dar cfm sat working half day(he today hav to work through the nite till tml 1130).... means he's gonna head hm to slp.... (dun blame u...) but will be heading to suntec to collect his hp....(was half dead....) most prob will hav dinner either there or near his hse before we head down.... so.... sat is like ended already... ahahahha!!!

sun.... also dun wanna tire him out le... most prob go his hse watch anime... enjoying each others' company.... oh ya hor... can watch NDP... wahahah... but only like to watch the front portion of it... (wat to do.... one shot can see so many uniform ppl...) *drools*.....

mon is the prob one.... holi.... like a chance to slp late leh... but.... haiZz... its like the only chance we gonna see each other before sch gonna start.... dunno lah... see how ba... now still to early to say anything...

*hopes to hav waffle ice cream despite my cough...*

another week....

yea... another freaking week passed.... getting sick again... now wheezing plus bad cough... not to mention i caught a cold since last fri nite....(went out with dear for his sec sch gathering...) weekends didnt do much... stayed at hm since sick...(got slight fever during sun..) oh ya... was damn pek chek during the weekends... dunno y.. suddenly my fuse got shorten... suai lor... tio hell from me....

ytd was fine... took leave to pei dar to do his arrears.... he was so clumsy... wahahhaha... so cute to watch sia... was laughing the whole day...(shdnt be doing tat since ima coughing...) but anyway.... enjoyed ytd bery much...

today dar got another day leave... hav to go take his QET... hope he does well... and also later ima gonna head to the clinic to collect my report... haiZz.... sebei sian.... the result better dun be too jialat.....

updates:
just collect my result... all is well.. too well.. blood count is normal..... then y i got so many blue blacks??(maybe my hse got.... wWwwoOOoooOO~~~)
but in my view... my glucose, sodium and cholesterol getting near to the red zone liao... think hav to change eating habits.... (vegetarian? nah... i will nv give up the meat...)
see how ba... but no major probs with my body ATM.... heng ar....