Bleah~

lalalalala.... watever... dun care.... wash my hands off of it..... another 'pretend' situation... gonna work.... gonna study.... gonna spend... gonna enjoy... no time frame watsoever... indefinite time for myself... can do watever i wan.. whenever i wan... with whoever i wan...

nth else to report... recruit requesting to fall out and return to bunker...

breaking down.... counting down...

aftn my bro come pester me about the passport issue again... if he dun wanna help me extend my passport tats fine with me liao.. i dun wanna argue anymore.....

today 7th day without his news... not even a freaking email or sms.... watever.... dun wanna think about it anymore....

just now msning with steph... F***... i dun get it... why got such ppl in this world... why dun just give a damn straight answer one... just like to screw other ppl... wanna waste ppl's time... and be super materialistic... ppl got use then stick to them.. useless liao siam one side.... haiZz.. this world dunno turn to wat liao lah...

then qing ming coming soon(like next sat).. for the first time since 19 yrs old.. i dun wanna go down.... i dun wanna see daddy.... i dun wanna tell him wat happen... i dun wan him to know his lil ger is miserable....

my mind is collapsing... freaking tired... dont wish to do anything... dun wanna tok to anyone... why like tat... i dunno... i freaking hell dunno...

mentally i think i cant tahan liao... ytd nite round 3am i almost cant take it... almost cried... but held back.. sickening to be a human... think itsa gonna get worse.... argh!!!... shit crap hell!!!

ima heading out tml.... i cant take it.... i hav to get out liao.... i hav to go somewhere spacious... i hav to go somewhere to daze liao..... i hav to get out of this hse.....

i wonder y...

feelings one sian... these few days like always kann ppl stepping on my tail... freaking piss off... think wat.. i boizzit... kaoZz... treat u nice and concern about u, u can bo hiu me... wanna play such games with me... TMD....

GOT ONE INCIDENT REALLY PISSES ME OFF~~!! it happen on sat.... my mom come tell me one day pei her go ICA.. ask her for wat say she wanna make passport... then i ask for wat sia.. can tell me she wanna go Thailand... WTH... SHE WANNA GO THAILAND~~~ i super dulan lor.. just shoot her back... i wanna go overseas u die die dun let me go without giving me any reasons for so many yrs now u tell me u wanna go Thailand with ur frs... got 天理 de mah... then can come tell me: "oh.. u wanna come?" u tell me lah.. if its u.. u piss bo...

dun say before 21 dun let me go overseas... i close one eye.. since u say still young not safe... fine.. i accept the answer... i know ur concerns... then wat about aft reaching adulthood... for bloody 5 yrs i asked u for permission to go somewhere with A BIG GROUP OF FRS to go overseas.. always NO... NO GIVEN REASONS NO GIVEN EXCUSES EVEN.. JUST NO.... then i hav to take it all in.... nv go think about how i feel... nv thought tat now being 25 liao.. nv been to ANY WHERE except to Thailand when i was 16.. and its only cos its a sch excursion which she actually dun let me go.... every one else been to somewhere else... i dun even know how the causeway looks like.. i dun even know how bintan and batan the resorts looks like... then everytime i say my frs all got go overseas once a while de.. can tell me.. u went to Thailand before liao hor.. not happy meh... KNS.... TATS NOT THE POINT~!!!!

when i was working then.. but i kept my side of the deal.. i worked.. i gave u allowance... i provide for the family... then nv thought tat i being an adult i can no need to even ask u for anything and can just go... i can just report my passport lost make another one with you knowing... freaking break her promise to me... say when i go work i earn lui can go..... fine... i didnt work like my frs... i didnt earn alotwat i get in return? NTH AT ALL....

why in the hell for the past few yrs i hav to 硬着头皮 to ask u.... for wat... when i know cfm u give me the same answer over and over again.. u think u answer till sian ar.. i ask till pek chek liaolor... but still.. i ask.. why? i respect u.. i respect u as my mother... i respect the fact tat anything 'major' i shd ask for ur opinion... also cos i promise my dad before he died to listen to u... tats the promise i made and tats the promise i will upheld even though i hated it.. even though my dad know its hard for me.... THEN WHY IN THE HELL I GET SUCH RETRIBUTION!! WAT I DID TO DESERVE SINCE TREATMENT.... I DIDNT DO ANYTHING TO PISS U OFF.. I DIDNT DO ANYTHING TAT MAKE UR BLOOD BOIL.. I DIDNT DO ANYTHING TO MAKE UR BLOOD VESSEL BURST.. THEN WHY ARE U GIVING ME SUCH A TREATMENT...

ima sebei tried over this liao... cos of this overseas issue(in general) i tio stuck between her and my fr/bf... wat am i suppose to do..... freaking lan lan liao lah... i dun care liao... i sick and tired of doing this endless vicious cycle liao... i give up ar.. dun wanna see this issue any more... u wan passport i make for u.. dun expect anything else from me liao... I GAVE UP THIS FAMILY LONG TIME AGO LIAO!!!

current wishlist

now is aftn... 345pm... nth much is happening rite now.... just counting down the hrs till nick's flight... btw.. ima not sending him... his whole family is going.. so... nvm lah hor?

so just gonna type out wat ima eyeing on atm.... point to take note... wat ima eyeing doesnt mean ima sure buy de.... i always hav a habit of over thinking regarding buying stuff....

so expected rite???

wanna get this... but wat colour shd i get?? hmmm....

oh ya... thinking of saving lui to get a sony cybershot cam leh... think a DSC-T300/B ba.... think this thing hav to wait like many months then can buy... then by tat time think nv buy liao... wahahah... ima always like tat... think bery long then nv buy....

still got other things in mind..... see how ba... anyway... ima like ordering 5 bbs for the month of march liao.. tat will like dunno how much le... 60 70ish maybe? all these things will be like santa's lil prob liao... wahahha!!!

one lil update though.. finally waited till pokemon platinium is out... i mean the english version de... woohoo~~ tat will be like 2 months of entertainment for me... and also super robot taisen K!!! YEA!!!!!(i didnt know they coming out a new version de... kinda like a surprise for me) not to mention the other games i d/led namely dragon quest V, blue dragon plus, where on earth is carmon sandiego(rmb the cartoon!!??) and other RPG games... GONNA SINK MY FINGERS ON THE GAME PAD LIAO LOR!!!!~~~

day of updating

first thing first... got my hp back.. happy happy~~ still love my hp.... heng can fix.... or else i dunno wat i gonna do facing the samsung d900.... somemore like no new hp i like... i shall wait... wait till there is one sony ericcson tat is worth my love and affection.....

today suppose to go out with nick(last day of his leave and before he flies off on fri) but tio called back to office... tio fly aeroplane.... heng nv planned anything beforehand.. or else sure flare up de... but kinda like duhZz... last chance to spend time liao.... screw chih wen... wahhaha!!!!

however....since so free contacted Elaine(4 days nv tok to her... dunno wat stories she will tell) and she told me ALOT of things... wahaha... too much for my brain to digest liao... sth about alv(again...) and her god siblings...(so many prob de leh...)

then tok to steph.. regarding about ytd's issue(refer to ytd's post)... she was like long time no see me flare up till like tat liao...throughout the 'story telling' she was in shock about the 'female lead' 's attitude.... she also agreed with me it was uncalled for and kinda 'deserve' the punishment i melt out to her..... but steph was like laughing away with the 'arrows' i shot... funny yet sarcastic....(another lvl which took yrs of training mind u...)

we tok about other things(mainly rants to each other....) and laughed at each other's replies to certain issue.... ah.... long time nv tok till so shiok liao... really miss the intelligent arguments with her.... and tok till her hp bo batt... think shall wait for her to come into msn then continue our 'lil wife's tales'.....

nth much will happen these few days... tml most prob nick working... fri he flying off... sat gonna rot... sun will go out... gonna join Elaine and her gang of minions to suntec for career fair.... gonna hav entertainment for me liao... wahahaha.... but aft the fair i nth to do liao.. sad.. she wans me to follow her back to tp.... which i rather not... aiya... see how lah... aft fri.. i super free.... woohoo~~~

HATE POST~~~!!!

rant rant RANT~~~ IMA BLOODY F*** UP PISS OFF!!!!! wats wrong with u.... break patch break patch all u say de... u think u wat... super in control over the whole issue ar~~~ u're so in the dark lor.... think u so pro in playing such games ar.... kaoZz... sebei think skin ar... PUI!!! think u freaking smart ar... can cook up an Oscar winning story up to scam him and me ar... PLS LOR~~~ MY IQ AND EQ CFM HIGHER THAN YOU LOR!!! THINK I WAT!!! 3 YR OLD KINDERGARDEN KID AR.... F***ING RETARD....

FREAKING IDIOT THINK WAT?? I SNATCHING HIM AWAY AR... KAOzZ.... U BREAK WITH HIM LIKE 2 DAYS AGO... SAY DIE DIE WLDNT PATCH... I TOK TO HIM AS A FR U SO BLOODY GAN JIONG FOR WAT~~~!!!! NOT UR FREAKING BUSINESS RITE!!! NOW U SAME STANDING AS ME IN HIS EYES LOR... WAT STAND DO U HAV TO INTERROGATE ME REGARDING WAT I SAID TO HIM WHICH IS NTH ABOUT YOU!!! BLOODY HELL... THINK I WAT... FOX SPIRIT AR... ONE NOT ENOUGH AR.. NEED OTHER MEN AR... NEED UR GUY AR... WAT BIANG... DUN INSULT MY TASTE LEVEL CAN OR NOT!!! AND PLS HOR I NOT LIKE U LOR... DUN LEARN LESSONS WHEN TIO PUNISHMENT.... THEN GO BLAME OTHER PARTY MAKE URSELF LIKE VICTIM... KNS!!!


GO SCREW THE OTHER PITIFUL GUYS TAT U SCAM LAH... BLOODY BITCH!! ONE DAY U SURE KANNA FROM EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM DE... NOT LIKE U CARED ANYWAY.. SINCE I HAV BEEN TELLING U SINCE SEC SCH!!!!

TMD... U WANNA COME INSULT ME U BETTER KNOW WAT U GETTING URSELF INTO AR... AFT FRI NO ONE CAN STOP ME FROM FLARING UP LIAO LOR.... OR U MISS MY TEMPER LIAO HUH?? U WANNA MESS WITH ME IZZIT?? I DARE U LAH~~~

chapter dunno wat... (thoughts in my freakly mind)

her heels hurts; lower back sore, from all the walking on a sat late aftn and started to grumble about why she's here out in the scorching sun for no reason. she flung her hand thus loosening the grip from his and parked herself nicely near the fountain of Ngee Ann city plaza. he panicked, while glancing between the brightly lite sky and her "this is not suppose to happen! where is it? ytd's news cant be wrong.. can it?" he begins to reside to the fact tat today is not the day he planned out to be..

he has seen this look on her face... so familar from her many frequent little flare ups... he made his way to the nearby magazine store where he bought her fav: green tea(ice of course) hoping it wld cool her down due to the weather and the uneventful/painful day she had till now... she was then guided to the front of the stone structure of the fountain and sat down only to pin point tat its inhuman to rest on it as it was baked under the sun since morn.... he has no choice.. he has to suffer.. he sat down.... signaled her and patted his lap which she happily obliged.. "why are we going here anyway.. we've been here last week.. don't u have other places in mind?" he stunned for a moment... there is no other place he had in mind this is what he strategies for.. but.. its not going according to his his shoulder's crumpled abit as he approaches the decent looking magazine store upfront... bought her fav :green tea(iced of course) and walked towards her.. hoping it will appease her abitpre laid out plan... he apologises and promised this will not happen again and ask her whether she had any idea where she might wanna head to.. "nope... how wld i know.. u're suppose to plan.. rmb??"
he let out a heavy sign... which follows with an instruction to head into the mall... his only thought was to at least end the day well enough for her liking even though he's coping with the distraction of his failed out plan.... furthermore, another whine from her and he will most probably freak out...

aft she rested enough(long enough to numb both his legs) they proceeded towards the mall with her commenting tat if its malls they're going she rather go to other places... he manage to coax her temper down with the excuse of shelter and air condition compared with the dry hot air out in the open...


PS: oggie... tats enough for today... lazy to write liao...may hav to edit some points here and there... and add alot of chapters front and back... but the idea is there.... for now... will rearrange everything into place once the whole plot is done.... sianZz.. ima really nth to do sia... go write short stories.... OMFG!!!~~~ WAT HAV I BECOME!!!!!

heart sank....

so sad... morn wake up drop my hp.....(butter fingers!!!) now sms function sot liao... my msg all tio stuck in the outbox...(still can say 'out'box) sian lor... now hav to go find the samsung charger for the extra hp before i can hand mine to my bro...(which is going for holi to taiwan for like a week... extra emo points here...)

then go see doc regarding my wee wee prob(too personal?)... sian.. spend 50 bucks on one session nia.. *money flys*.... then first time in my life i drank SOUR medicine... wah biang.. sebei disgusting.... like drinking pure lemon juice sia...

well at least today got abit of a comfort.. get to eat lobster!!! first time eat!!! giant prawn!!! wahhaah... at bishan... manhatten fish market... but i dun really like the sauce tat comes with it... kinda too creamy for me.... but nv go shopping... already lua lua liao... went back around 6 plus... straight go slp.. cant take another 'toilet break' liao... all the way to 10pm...

when i wake up i realised i was dreaming bout sth....(think i watched too much reality tv shows and getting high.... wahahah!!!) but not gonna tell ya!!~~ (sue me lor~~)

colourful yet nth to do so did it post......

just as the topic suggest... nth to do so did this... ima gonna post tons of pics... which i took when i totally nth to do... gonna spilt them all into 3 diff posts..... cos... itsa tons of lame pics.... first one... CNY outing with mom... to Sentosa see HUA~~~~ OMG.... nv really like flowers in the first place... and hav to go in the morn... grrr.... anyway... enjoy if u wan... *disgust*

oh.. btw... ima not gonna comment regarding this post... cos itsa hua!!! just enjoy lah.. dun complain me being lazy... duhZz....

my boliao-ness at hm or during festivals.....

another pic time.... just some super lame things i did.... and usually with mousezilla... lol.... he's always with me when ima up to no good.... anyway....enjoy and hav a smirk...

!!!!! watcha doing with tat fork??

oh no u don't!!!!

put tat down... ima warning u huh.....

guess wats this???

oggie.. ima lame... but its tang yuan... u're suppose to hav fun with it....

might be lame at first.. but it came out pretty good wat....

errr... itsa morn... the mouse is slpy oggie...

wahahah... mousezilla~~~ itsa ur lil cousin~~!!!

did this during the time i hav to repaint the whole hse... since gonna paint... let me play first lor....

CNY decor.... whois legs are those??? i didnt know mousezilla can lion dance!!??

yea... aft stripping the ugly fishing lines and the holder... manage to decor it the way i wan it...

mooncake festival.... mousezilla... trying to steal some food...

my baby!!! i pester my mom to buy this oggie.... i accidentally brunt my old one when i was in pri sch... super emo about it....

lantern made from pomelo skin... as wat i told my mom..."your childhood leh!!!"

wahahahah... he got 'wings'

he got a share of makan one de hor.. i nv mistreat him de.....

during my bro's wedding... mousezilla die die wanna poke his nose... in this case butt in.... in everything....

Skyline during wee morn....

tons of skyline pics... why?? i like to stare into the sky... endless sight.... i like the way the light is being bounce and curve to create diff lighting/colour.... i like how the clouds are so easily affect by just a weak breeze... cos of this the sky is like a canvas.... waiting for the sun to lift up the brush to apply the colours of life on them and thus affecting us too....

here's a weird qus for u.. when's the last time u lay on the grass and stareupwards into the sky???

yo steph... just took this pic this morn around 730am... wat it look like? a cupid looking angel wearing a ballet outfit looking down while carrying sth??

this is just taken few days back.. not the one which the news toked about...... suppose to be a double rainbow... but sec one too faint to see....

the famous rainbow which came aft the merlion's lil shocking encounter.... and aft the flooding of my hse.... duhZz.....

the rain.... THE RAIN WHICH FLOOD MY HSE!!! DAMN U!!!!